taylor3205 Posted December 24, 2007 Posted December 24, 2007 Well I dont really know exactly how long its been since we split. Lost track of time but approximately a couple of month to 10 week or so. I just cant seem to get my head together over it. Im in bits, Im hungover and its christmas eve and Im lonely. My parents are doing the whole xmas dinner bit tomorow and I just cant face it because I know that no matter how hard I try to look and sound happy that I know Im not and everyone else knows it and Ill probably get all emotional and make everyone including myself uncomfortable. So ive just asked for some food to be plated up and I will have it when i call round later in the day. I hate feeling like this. I just want the old me back. Ive spent most of the day in bed today. I miss my ex so much, I dream about him and everything just seems so dull and empty. I just wana go to sleep and wake up when xmas and new year is over. To complicate matters even further I have kinda met someone else who I really do like (maybe even love) but I know Im setting myself up to be hurt I just know it, but I cant help it. Me and my ex were together 9 years, we have broken up before but this time it is for good, I think I will always love my ex, but that dont mean I cant love anyone else does it? My heads a total and utter mess and I just dont know what to do. Ive been drinking a hell of a lot lately and smoking a lot of cannabis, I know that is the wrong way to go about it but at least it blots it out for a while. All I can do is try and think positive I guess and look at 2008 as a fresh new start.
Confused9 Posted December 24, 2007 Posted December 24, 2007 ok, first of all...smoking pot and drinking is not the answer. Drinking is a depressant and is probably why you feel so sh*tty today. This weekend I got hammered on Friday at a party and Saturday I was so depressed. Probably becasue alcohol is a downer! Second of all, try and see where things go with this other guy. you never know what might happen. Could you get hurt, sure. Could you fall in love, sure. Could he be the one, sure. Could he just be Mr. Right now, sure. You never ever know what might happen. Enjoy your time with him. Be glad you have someone to help ease the pain - give you the companionship you miss. Allow him to make you happy or help you be on your way to happy. (not saying you need a man to be happy, but I think having someone to cuddle wtih and make you feel wanted, desired, somewaht loved, helps!) Try and have a good holiday, be positive. Things could be better - but they could be worse. : )
sedgwick Posted December 24, 2007 Posted December 24, 2007 I have smoked a HUGE amount of pot since my ex and I broke up. At first I thought it was helping me cope, but every time I smoked I felt worse and just ended up crying. I quit a couple of weeks ago and I feel SO much better. Not to mention the money I'm saving! I love the lazy leaf but I'm really much happier without it.
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