BalancenLuv20 Posted December 23, 2007 Posted December 23, 2007 This is all my fault...i posted recently she called me after 3 weeks of NC(broke up 3 months ago). Nice talk and then a week later, she's crying to me on the phone about her family saying no one else would pick up. I told her I'd call her back because my battery died and to delay me calling her back, I got pulled over for a traffic violation. I was thinking that maybe this was some kind of sign. I call her back when I get home, cheer her up, and she says she wants to see me again. I said it would be nice and she made sure by asking if she thought I was ready. I had been doing much better that week and thought that it wouldn't be too big a deal if we slowly started to become friends again. I figured as long as we can keep her bf out of the equation, we can have a good time together. Well, last night I'm at my best friends's house, and I made the mistake of looking at her myspace profile and saw all those pics I never got to see before, many of her and her bf. Shot to the heart #1. My best friend is also my ex's brother and while I'm waiting for him in my car to come out, i decide to call my ex and tell her to come out and say hi to me. It was pretty emotional, we gave each other a huge hug and it felt great. She looked immaculate and we talked and she had that same sense of excitement she had when we dated. But then all of a sudden she says her bf is waiting for her out front and she has to go, but that she is going to call me still to hang out soon...she then wanted me to wait 5 mins so he wouldn't see me come out...then that plane in my heart came crashing down and for the rest of the night I was a moody, discombobulated wreck. I slept like crap last night and had a mini panic attack and cried about it today. What is my deal. College is starting in 3 weeks and still the pain harps on. This is my fault for making myself feel this crap, I don't really attribute the blame to her. I thought I was getting my act together by getting a job, moving into my dad's house with my 2 little half brothers and my dogs, not feeling sorry for myself, and being more social, but at this point I question if it's really worked. I've talked to several girls and have even had little crushes on a few of them, but they all have bf's and they fade in and out of my life. Sort of like most of my friends, except my best friend who is there for me, but still makes me feel like crap because he is my ex's brother. I've had so many mood swings that I feel like I can't control. I don't expect any of you to have any sympathy for my situation, I guess I just wanted to vent and let out this crap. I just hate feeling sick to my stomach, but at the same time hate feeling lonely, heartless, and without a purpose in life. So should I hang out with her one time and see what happens, or should I just wait for her to call and tell her I'm sorry ONCE AGAIN, but I can't go through with this. Part of me is really intrigued to see what happens if we hang out soon, but another part of me is just like dude, cmon man she is not your "cutie" anymore and if she really loved you like you love her, she'd let you go and quit playing you like this.
jerbear Posted December 23, 2007 Posted December 23, 2007 Dude, you're in the "friendzone" if she calls again for help; ask her if she called her bf as you are not the BF. Even if your BFF is her brother, keep him out of the issue and keep it between you and her. IMO, focus on your education and graduate! There are also other co-eds back on campus.
oppath Posted December 23, 2007 Posted December 23, 2007 Next time she calls you needing a shoulder to lean on, just say "I'd like to be there for you, but I feel your boyfriend is the one you should call about these things. I'm not your bff. I care about you, but I can't be the guy you use for support. It's not fair to me or your bf."
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