hemingway Posted December 23, 2007 Posted December 23, 2007 The first time we saw each other, it was like something went off...it was mutual b/c neither of us could take our eyes off each other. Our first conversation was silly and funny like we'd known each other for years. When we became physical, it was like nothing I'd ever felt before.....like an addiction. Fast forward one year. I am undoubtedly in love. We go out for supper one night and decide to stop at his shop late at night. We sort of fall asleep in his office half naked, and pretty tipsy. The next thing I know, someone is beating on my half naked body......after the initial round of fists on my chest and arms, I gather that this woman knows my man, and quite intimately by what she's saying to him. I am stunned beyond belief. But not before round two starts, and I am back to my wits with this crazy b*&ch. So it ends that night. It could have been worse, she could have picked up one of his tools and killed me. I am still furious with him for lying like that for a whole year, for putting me in a dangerous situation, and for inevitably staying with her (I heard nothing from him for a month or so.) That was the worst part. Now he's "accidentally" texted me once, and sent me an email (a virus warning)....but no apology, no explanation and no closure. I am still obviously hurting, and blown away that this guy could be such a professional actor. Why can't I let go? And why is he "accidentally" contacting me? More games? How can someone pull this off and feel no guilt? WHY ME. And what is he thinking now? Is he sick? So heartsick.
Ronni_W Posted December 23, 2007 Posted December 23, 2007 No matter what else, you deserve to be treated better than that! I imagine that the circumstances make it all the more difficult for you to cope with. You can't (yet) let go because you were genuine in your love and affection for this guy - you are a loving and giving person, which makes you 100% lovable and worthy of receiving genuine love. Is there ANY apology or explanation that could be meaningful or useful in helping you get over this? Anyway, I'd doubt if this guy has the empathy and compassion to be able to offer you a sincere apology. You could take that entire 'office ordeal' as your closure -- it certainly was a ritual of emotions-letting, even if no blood spilled. Sorry you are going through this. I would use the disappointment, frustration and anger to fuel my desire to get him out of my head and heart as quickly as possible. Sending hugs and good wishes.
D-Lish Posted December 24, 2007 Posted December 24, 2007 No such thing as an accidental text. I have done it in the past to shake things up and make contact with someone I am missing. I am sure he still likes you- but that shouldn't matter. He cheated on both of you...and he'll continue to do so. No telling why he did such a brutal thing. The important thing for you to do is to do as much as you can for yourself so you can move on as quickly as possible. What are you doing to feel better at the moment?
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