cookiecrumbles Posted December 21, 2007 Posted December 21, 2007 MY story..ok so i used to come on here after my ex broke up wit me..i was so upset n used to get anxiety n feel hell depressed but no joke wud come on here n feel bit better knowin i wasnt onli one goin thru this pain..n now im ova feelin tat way i feel i shud tell mine n hopefulli try help othas. my ex broke up wit me nearli 2 yrs ago now, was so unexpected..literalli jus one day she was like dont wanna go out nemore after 2 years, i was shocked n couldnt believe it..then next day she sleeps wit a guy n tells me bout it. i got very depressed n couldnt fathom the thought of being without her so i did the whole beggin n crying n all that which u dont realli realise ur doin at the time..but didnt help at all, n fact my ex used to play head games wit me made it even worse, wen she was lonely wud call me ova n we`d hook up but next day be cold, n we wud hang out alot cos i still wanted to b round her cos i still loved her but the way she acted made it even worse for me, n i would go home even deeper depressed but i was so stoopid id still go bak in hope shed realise her mistake..but yea tat neva came, n eventualli her behaviour was too much for me to handle n i realised wit advice on here n everythin i needa bak off, n dont get me wrong was sooo hard for me but i knew it was the onli way..NC seriously does help you, u will not get over someone unless u cut urself off to everythin bout them..i deleted her myspace n all them so i wouldnt look at it, n jus wud neva msg at all. i still wasnt over her but it wud ease the pain n after awhile it got easier, altho sumtimes on odd occasion i wud catch up wit her but still it wud make all the feelings come bak..Then in the end i rarely saw her at all cos she moved to another state n i got over all the bad feelings, n i met new friends n started new job tat made me forget bout her altogether pretti much and i started even liking my new life.. ...However bad experiance happened start of the year and me n my ex got into huge fights n stuff n we pretti much said we were never gonna talk to each other again n i was actualli fine wit it! but then after awhile my ex jus shows up at my work one nite as if nothin had ever happened, like talking all nice to me n stuff! it didnt bother me if we cud both b civilised again cos its easier not bein mad at someone...So since then u know we`d send the occasional text msgs n stuff, nothing major...i guess tho us being nice to each other n everythin kinda reminds me of how it was before we broke n stuff so i try keep txting to a minimal..when she comes bak home we hav caught up n i always leave feeling like i wanna c her more, like hang out n its not good but i get over it withihn a few days...its like she has this way of making me feel either realli happy or realli depressed n theres no inbetween. so i try not to think bout her at all but then when i have stopped thinkin bout her she jus always manages to call me or text me sumthing bout our past like she doesnt want me to forget..for eg. few weeks ago i got a text msg from her n i hadnt spoke to her in few months n it said stuff like "i kant believe how much i used to love u n how i felt i couldnt live without u and its amazin wot our situations are now n our fights were like u knew i loved u more so u would be stubborn" n im jus like wtf?? y on earth wud she send tat...her reply was i was jus thinkin bout it! so it confused me heaps n since then she has told me she is comin bak home to visit n im like o yea we shud catch up n she says yea def i miss ya...it makes me think all confused n stuff its weird..cos feelings come bak wen she starts talkin like that but i dont want them to cos i can forget bout her wen i dont talk to her..i dont think in ne way she wants me bak but jus dont get why she says things to me like that after 2 years..doesnt make sense...neways bit long i know but this was 2 years in the making writing this haha....i hope to go chek out otha forums now n listen to other ppl!
Sal Paradise Posted December 23, 2007 Posted December 23, 2007 You need to fix this post. It's unreadable.
john-1968 Posted December 23, 2007 Posted December 23, 2007 You need to fix this post. It's unreadable. Agreed. This is a forum, not a text message center.
sedgwick Posted December 23, 2007 Posted December 23, 2007 couldn't make it through 2 sentences. please write in english...this is not a text message! (also...why is it harder to type a "y" to end words than an "i?")
Nemo Posted December 23, 2007 Posted December 23, 2007 (edited) Executive summary: i got a text msg from her it said stuff like"i kant believe how much i used to love u n how i felt i couldnt live without u andits amazin wot our situations are now nour fights were like u knew i loved u more so u would be stubborn" feelings come bak wen she starts talkin like that but i dont want them toTake a six-month course of NC. Please don't skip a day, because that's all it takes for the infection to reestablish itself. As you swallow each pill, think about your life, and what you want to do with it. P.S. I hope my summary was not offensive. I don't mean to trivialise the circumstances, but I'm trying to understand how your cookie crumbles. Edited December 23, 2007 by Nemo
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