PoshPrincess Posted December 21, 2007 Posted December 21, 2007 Well, it has been almost eight weeks without me contacting him (a record for me!) so I am hoping to make it to New Year's Day without giving in to "Text Temptation". This is the thing. I met MM in a bar where I used to work a couple of years ago. He was one of our punters. Due to recent circumstances, I have returned to work there, something I thought would never happen in a million years. Yes, I know there are plenty of other bars but I know this place will employ me as a casual worker and will be totally understanding of my family commitments. I am not going to bs you guys or kid myself and pretend that I don't want to see him because, of course, a part of me does! I thought tomorrow was going to be my first night back but luckily I have already done a shift to prepare myself and it was pretty unlikely that he would've been there at that time. Hell, I was nervous!!! There is a slight chance he will be there tomorrow and I am just after some advice on how to control my feelings. I would ask "how should I handle it?" but I pretty much know the answer to that. I just want to keep everything in check because, although I still have feelings for him, I am now with someone else, MM has made it clear he will never leave and therefore I do not want to go down that road again. Don't get me wrong, I don't think that MM would try to get me back and probably wouldn't even go so far as to flirt with me. I just want to prove to myself that seeing him isn't a problem. I know I am not totally over him but I do feel that I have moved on in a BIG way! It is likely that MM has heard I'm back and if he has, it's possible that he will avoid the place like the plague anyway. On the other hand, he may be intrigued enough (and bored at home again maybe?) to check things out for himself. I have the support of a couple of friends who will hopefully be there but what I really need are some wise words from my fellow Love-Shackers! Thanks in advance x
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