Time to vent, I need Now!

[yayaya123]

Ok well am 17 years old, a freshman in college and the girl Ive been with since the winter of my Junior year in high school seems to be a completely diffrent person now. We were together for 1 year and 8 months before my heart was pulled out of my body and stomped on by her, so no it isnt broken think worst than that. Well i meet her in 2005, she was a freshman I was a junior. It has love at first sight for me. The first night we talked, we stayed on the phone for 3 hrs. I remeber one night being on the phone from 10 at night till 7 the next morning. She had never kissed anyone none of that I was her first everything, well we didnt have sex but I will get to that in a minute. This was my first real relationship and have never felt this way about a girl before. I was going into this knowing my parents wouldnt approve. I am Nigerian and according to my culture, you should date or notice the opposite sex until your atleast done with college. Ive lived in America since I was 9 so yeah that was one rule I broke. I kept this a secret from my parents and lied to them constantly. My mom would catch me on the phone late at night and I would lie about who I was talking too. One day the phone bill came in and you know what happend next. They found out i was in "one of those high school relationship" as my dad would call it. He said i was too young and needed to focus on my education and future before i worry about girls. I wouldnt listen they took my phone away evertything away, yet my x still stayed with me. I thought she loved me so much so I wasnt going to break her heart and break up with her because of my parents. I blow them off and always thought only if they knew what we had together. That summer I was grounded the whole time, It was difficult I would sneak into the kitchen at night and take the house phone to talk to her, we would cry on the phone and talk about how much we missed eachother, we always said if we could make it through the summer we were gonna be with each other forever. We made it through that summer. THe only time i could see her was at school and after school when i would lie to my parents about having to stay after for extra tutoring. We started messing around but never had sex because it was something she wanted to wait out till she got married or atleast till the age of 18. I was ok with that, I LOVED HER. We always talked about sharing that special moment with eachother when we got older. BTW, I had no life because of her. I did everything for her, i mean everything. I was always the jealous bf so I would get mad everytime she talked to guys, something she didnt like but i had a reason for doing so. Back to the winter of 2005 when we first meet. She was a freshman and during her 8th grade year like a guy, the ended up going to diffrent high schools and she meet me. A month into the relationship i found out she still liked that guy and would talk to him over the phone after that my trust for her somewhat change but i didnt believe she would cheat on me. I mean weve been through so much just to be with eachother why would she cheat right? Well its the end of my 12 grade year and the arguments started heating up. I was a little older and wasnt so " attached " I wouldnt always call her 50 million times a day and just little things like that. I guess she didnt like it. We broke up 3 times that summer. I stayed home and decided to go to a local community college and wiat it out two years until she was done with high school. I thought things will work out and it was just a bum in the road. WELL I WAS WRONG. Early october I went through her phone and saw she was texting this guy. I confronted her while i was taking her to school one morning and she told me the story. He older sister never liked me and thought i "mistreated" her sister. MIstreat in the sense that she would start an argument with me and I wouldnt argue back, I normal kept quite or just said call me when you calm down and I would walk away. I didnt like fighthing. So yeah her older sister is pregnant has a bf who isnt the father of her baby and that bf has a cousin so they decided to "hook" the 2 up. This made me so mad and I said something to he effect of f u and your family" she told her mom and her mom called my parents the next day. My parents were totaly shocked because I lied to them a year early and told them i wasnt seeing this girl anymore. My parents were so dissapionted. We broke up that day but even after that she wanted to still be my "friend", well friend meaning come over and make out with her and mess around. I didnt lik this but it was hard just cutting her off of my life so i went along. I should have used that time to start getting over her. Well my parents caught me again because her mom decieded to call my house again. This time my car and phone was taken away. I talked to her online and she seemed not to care. She siad it wasnt her problem anymore and that we werent together. This hurt me so bad. We stopped talking for 2 weeks and then one saturday i decided to talk to her online. I asked how she was and tried figuring out if she had a new bf or something. Well she didnt. Coming to terms that we may never be together agian i tried out talking to other girls. Well she saw comments on my myspace and got really mad. I talked to other girls not to make her mad but to stop thinking so much about her much i wantd her back. I didnt kiss any of those girls never liked them just spent time with them and get my mind off of things. I believe when you truly love someone no matter what you cant find your self liking another person just months later. Well one day I talked ot her on the phone and asked well are you talking ot other guys now and she said yes she was and she meet a new guy in her chemistry class. THIS HURT!! IT HURT BAD!. I said well ok but you got really pissed at me for talking to girls and she siad well i dont know what your "statues" is and am not gonna cry about you and our break up anymore. I said i could handle talking to her when shes talking other guy so i told her that was it and I wasnt talking ot her again. She siad ok and i hung up. This weekend my friend would be coming home form shcool with his gf so he is trying to set something up were me and my x can see eachother agian after a month and talk things over face to face. He called my ex and she siad she would think about it. He 3 wayed of the the phone calls and we talked on the phone. Again I asked about the guy thing and asked if she had kissed anyone else and she said yes. When i meet her she had never kissed anyone or done anything sexual i was her first It took a month into our relation ship for her to kiss me. THis hurt bad considering she had only talked to this guy for a a week or so. Well basically she lied to her mom and said she was staying after school but she got in this guys car and went to his house. She siad he started kissing her and it felt weird so she called her mom and told her mom to come pick her up. She claims she stopped taling to him because he was a jerk and thats all he wnted from her. I cant begin to explain how hurt i was about this. I said ok well are you talking to any other guy and she siad yes. By this time i felt like crying. Well she turns 17 in 5 days and this guy is 19. I mean when i was with her she wouldnt look at any other guys and now all of a sudden thats all she does is tlak to guys. I told her well he is too old and we live in VA if her touches her thats statutory rape and shes like well I wouldnt tell anyone. I siad thoseyour mom know and she said NO!. It just seems like shes so over me but yet she talks to me first and if she was so over me why cant she just say you know what am done talking to you I dont wnat anything to do with you anymore. THis hurts so bad. I know am 17 still young and have a life ahead of me but she was my first love and we were together for a year and 8 months its almost 3 months into the breakup and I am sitll not over her. Please I need some advice, what should i do next?

[yayaya123]

Any advice please? I need to talk to an adult and I cant talk to my parents about this. Anything helps.

[82knightrider]

Let go man.Move on.If it was meant to be youll bump into eachother later in life or maybe the next.