want to text to know

[alexa137]

after almost 2 months of NC i still want to text or call to see if my ex still cares or anything towards me--its so depressing-

i guess because i never got any of these questions answered

why did you leave me?

why dont you want to be with me?

was it all real?

i have had numerous posts throughout this forum since march

this is so devastating and traumatic still! i thought it was a little better few weeks ago but no it just keeps coming back

and if i were to even repeat some of the things he used to IM and text me would be so crazy because even after we broke up we still messed around for months! we were like addicted to each other-yeah i guess mostly i miss the sex-it was amazing the best! so now everytime i masturbate i cry afterwards for a long time- wanting him needing him just wondering where the connection went

it was always so easy our instant lust was mind blowing and cannot be described--i mean it was everyday 2-3 times sometimes for 1 1/2 years

now ive gone 2 months with no sex and going crazy

just wondering if i text him what his response would be

i loved him so much and he was such a big part of my life(my first real bf)

i could go on and on but its just makes me miserable and i know its all wrong but i dont know what to do to get over him-i want to move far away or something

i am just so curious

[82knightrider]

Just go out and make new memories. Meet new ppl.Eventually you will meet someone awsome to be intimate with.I guess theres something called "broken heart syndrome." For me ,I think im at the point where its just "i need to get laid syndrome"