fabulousgal Posted December 15, 2007 Posted December 15, 2007 well i am back. a guy that i've been seeing for the past 2 months, i'm pretty sure we ended it today. he came clean he still wants to try with his ex. i'm really hurt bc i had hopes and he really is a lovely person. We discussed the ex factor a few weeks ago and he did a good job at reassuring me not to worry. my birthday party is tonight, and now i have to get through him not being there and everyone asking where he is. i need a hug. i am so tired of coming back to this place in my life.
marlena Posted December 15, 2007 Posted December 15, 2007 A big, warm Happy Birthday hug from me. I know it's not much but I hope it does make you feel a little bit better. Wish I could do more. Next year's party will be better, I promise.
carrotgirl Posted December 15, 2007 Posted December 15, 2007 {{{{{Fabulous}}}}}} ,.,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,*,,,,,*,,,,,* ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,’0,,,,”0,,,,”0 ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, _||___||___||_ ,,,,,,,,,,’*,,{,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,},* ,,,,,,,,,, 0,,{/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/},’0 ,,,,,,,,,_||_{______________}_||_ ,,,,,,,,{/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/} ,,,,,,,,{,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,} ,,,,,,,,{/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/} ,,,,,,,,{________________,_______} ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,Happy Birthday!!
marlena Posted December 15, 2007 Posted December 15, 2007 See? You 've already gotten a hug and a beautiful cake from carrot girl!!! Thngs are looking up already!
frd150 Posted December 15, 2007 Posted December 15, 2007 Happy Birthday! ((((((((((((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Try to have some fun tonight
AriaIncognito Posted December 15, 2007 Posted December 15, 2007 Aww I'm sorry. ((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))) We've been through it before, and we can get through it again right? The holiday season has a way of making us reflect back over the year and long for something that isn't. I'll have to post a thread over my stupidity of this weekend. Hope you have fun tonight. Try to anyway. I know it's hard.
Author fabulousgal Posted December 17, 2007 Author Posted December 17, 2007 feelin a bit better today, we had all these plans for today and that kinda blows sitting and thinking about it, but i've been through so many of these that i know it'll get better with time. im just tired of going through it know what i mean. i feel like im cursed.
EYECANDY000 Posted December 17, 2007 Posted December 17, 2007 My arms are wide open.. Gimmie a hugggg \0/
Author fabulousgal Posted December 17, 2007 Author Posted December 17, 2007 ok, so i made it through the weekend with all the plans we had not happening. it was tough. im not devastated or anything but i am sad. i am getting better at these endings, which i dunno if is a good or bad thing. def know the rules about prolonging the pain for no reason. the thing that i hate the most is not being able to control the "hope". i can control the NC, i can control trying to occupy my time, or actually allowing myself to let the hurt run its natural course and cry when i need to. but the one thing i can't is "hoping" and i hate it. i have always hated this during any ending that i didnt really want. I am sure i will easily meet someone new, that i will like, but it sucks when you are like damn it why can't it just work! grrr to hope!
Author fabulousgal Posted December 18, 2007 Author Posted December 18, 2007 so i def got no happy bday call. this just iterates to me this person isn't worth my time. gotta know when to hold em know when to fold em.... still kinda sad and sucky. boooooo..........
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