Stuck in between the road

[OrangeSnack]

Greetings!

 

 

First of all, I want to apologize to those who will be reading this because I just realized how long this is!

 

My situation is a bit difficult, yet confusing. I don't exactly know how to start but let me summarize the situation. I've known this girl for over 10 weeks. I met her through one of my classes. At first I didn't pay any attention to her but exactly how we met was a long story. She and I both had troubles in class, so after class, I went up to the professor to ask for help, coincidently, she was there as well. So that day she asked for my number and I gave it to her. Also that day was my birthday, and a few hours I get a missed call from her and I finally returned her call a few hours later. She said, “Sorry but I felt bad for not giving you my number, so here it is!” So I told her it was my birthday and that I apologize for not picking up at first, and the conversation ended with a happy birthday, see you in class tomorrow. Aside from this, I already felt that she was someone I wanted to date so for the past two or three weeks, I began several experiments to see if she was interested in me. Personally, I had never been on a date, so if this does go well, it will be my first. At first I wanted to tell her right away about how I felt, but I knew that was a bad idea. So instead, I waited patiently for the right moment. I see her four times a week, but only an hour a day. As the weeks past I became more attached to her. Everyday after class, she would wait for me and we would walk and talk to the parking lot and then go our own separate ways. She would also turn in my homework for me after class, because I guess he knows that I pack up really slow and that she probably wants to spend some quality time with me after class??? Additionally, she would do a lot of favors for me, like scanning a page for me from the textbook and etc. I told my friends about this and almost all the advice they gave me was go for it and ask her out. So I did. Four weeks has gone by, and I finally broke the question (kind of). I didn’t want to be too forward with her so I asked her what she was doing this weekend, and that I wanted to buy her lunch. I also said give me a call if you are interested. For a split second I knew that I messed up on that line, but I guess it was the nervousness in me that caused me to say that. Go figure, she didn’t call that weekend. I was not surprised so I went for more advices from my friends and family. They all told me to be patient and to try again if I really like her. So I waited again, and this time it was during the thanksgiving holidays. After class, I told her let’s hang out this weekend, I really want to take you to the comedy store (standup shows and etc). She said enthusiastically, SURE! So that got me really excited and I called her on Friday night to schedule a date for Saturday. Surprisingly she didn’t pick up, so I left a voice mail, telling her if she was still “down for Saturday.” I got a call the next morning, hearing her apologizing over repeatedly about how she was so sorry for not returning my call and that she couldn’t make it. Reason? I didn’t ask her, I told her to quit apologizing and that it’s not the end of the world.

 

So I guess that was the end of it because she basically rejected me twice. However, I explained this situation to my friends and they explained to me that “I am still in the game.” I couldn’t believe myself either, but knowing that my friends all had experiences, I went with their advice again. During my last two weeks, she always waited for me after class, so I guess she was stillc comfortable talking to me and that she didn’t feel weirded out that I asked her out twice. (Or did she get the impression that I asked her out?) So anyway, during my finals week, I asked her if she wanted to study, and she said she was going to busy this weekend and she told me to call her on Monday. So instead of calling I texted her on Monday and she texted me back saying, Sorry it’s too cold outside but if you need the book let me know, blah blah blah, good luck studying. During our finals day, she didn’t sit next to me. I guess it was because she came in late or she couldn’t find me? Who knows… I got a text later that night saying, hope you did well on the final etc. I texted her back saying thanks and that I have something to give her because Christmas is around the corner.

 

Im glad that she is still comfortable talking to me after three attempts to “ask her out.” However, im not sure if she got the impressions that I was asking her out, but I am assuming that she did. Anyway, I still want to preserve this friendship in the long run because I feel that she is someone whom I can trust. She is very nice and humble. We joke around a lot and she laughs at all my jokes! She also likes to email me, asking me questions about studying abroad because I have had experiences with that. I also wrote her a Christmas letter, which I haven’t sent out yet, not sure if that’s a good idea. The letter basically contains a gift card (10$) and my expressions to her about how nice she is, how kindhearted she was to me in class, and how I really appreciate her as a friend. So my question: should I continue pursuing and maybe this time be more straight forward? Is she even interested in me? Or is she just one of those nice girls who isnt looking for a relationship but just friend instead? Shrug.... Again I apologize for the length, I should have summarized it in one paragraph