LoveLace Posted November 30, 2007 Posted November 30, 2007 Stopped by mom's for a bite after work yesterday, open the door and there he is, from 1,000's miles away! He is soo 11 years ago! Why won't he go away! Am I supposed to be catching on to a sign or something? We were engaged at 17. Broke up at 19. A few years later we had a fling during his unhappy marriage, but my excitement faded quickly. Then he contacts my mother, 2 kids and a divorce later (they always got along well) a few months ago. She pushed for me to "be friends" so I finally sent a short sweet email explaining I had a BF at the time. He asked for me to call but I ignorantly replied "yea if I have time". He's a good catch...but he's in the past! But a couple weeks ago, during a moment of needing to vent (I was still outta LS) I emailed him like a dummy, but I thought he'd wanna know my mom came through surgery well. I did mention being single again (not on purpose - I said I was having a really hard time with my break up). He never wrote back, but shows up at Mom's yesterday because he was "driving through" while on a business related trip (He can fly anywhere for free, but instead he chose to drive?) I'm not interested in a relationship again but the back of my brain, Why does the only guy who ever really loved me keep coming into my life!! Does it seem like he's trying to sneak his way back? He's a really good guy. But his personality always manages to somehow bore the crap outta me after while, then the attraction dies for me along with it. Or is it just too easy because I need more of a challenge? AHHH help!
Racquel Colette Posted November 30, 2007 Posted November 30, 2007 You have a better shot with m aking a relationship with him than that other guy from last weekend.
Author LoveLace Posted November 30, 2007 Author Posted November 30, 2007 You have a better shot with m aking a relationship with him than that other guy from last weekend. Well no sh*t. But the question is, do I really want that with him, given my dissipation of interest in the past? Or is there a chance I'd feel differently now that I'm older? Would I feel like I was settling for him because I haven't found someone else? He was very upset and hurt the 1st time we broke up (I was away at college); he was hurt the 2nd time too, because it became obvious that I wasn't into him anymore. But in the beginning, my feelings were intense. I don't want to lead him on but I don't want to be mean either (last night he said he'll back in town in 2 weeks. I told him to call me but I don't know that I'll really be interested in hanging out with him!)...I just don't know how to feel..
Sweetcheripie Posted November 30, 2007 Posted November 30, 2007 Yikes! As if you don't have enough on your plate with school right now! Maybe just put it on the backburner of your brain and just focus on school. Will you have some time off (semester break soon?)? Am not usually one to say to ignore stuff or procrastinate but in this instance I think you have enough stress right now and wouldn't add the "worry" about this right now. If his only bad point is he is boring, then maybe that is something you can look at within yourself. Maybe you are a little bit of a stress junkie and have to have a little drama in order to feel alive. But again just focus on the next few days of tests etc and then when you have some time to unwind you can think about this with a clear head.
Author LoveLace Posted November 30, 2007 Author Posted November 30, 2007 Your right about that sweet. If LS'ers read up on me enough it probably looks like I have a billion things going on, well that's cuz I do! It's nothing that's weighing very heavily on my mind, I was shocked to see him though. The 1st thing I thought was "Wait till I tell LS!!" as though it's my best friend!! Mom emailed me today and said he came by without any warning. I don't know, it's like he's trying to be sneaky, he has both our #'s and could have let us know in advance but nooo I guess he thought it'd be cute to just show up. And I look the lovely sight of an over-stressed over-fatigued nursing student! As for the boring part, it was the reason I wanted to lose him the 1st time, as well as the 2nd. We were together 3 yrs. and he bawled his eyes out, but I was estatic. I was his first for everything so I dont' know I guess he's just never really let go?
Racquel Colette Posted December 2, 2007 Posted December 2, 2007 Oh my gosh, you are a college-education, intelligent young woman with a lot going for you. Forget these losers. you can do better. You continue to pine over losers who don't deserve you anyway. You need to change that!
Author LoveLace Posted December 3, 2007 Author Posted December 3, 2007 Raquel my Ex fiance is not a loser, I can tell you that. He's been military ever since we broke up and he's been to Iraq. A girl would be lucky to have him cuz he's Mr. shy sweet guy and a good father to 2 children. It's just that his personality is just kinda there and I'd get bored with that quick, well I"ve already gotten bored with it- twice - so why make it 3 times? My mom's pushing for a reconciliation, ugh!! Anyhow, he's far from being a loser I can say that much.
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