brittany55 Posted November 30, 2007 Posted November 30, 2007 Ok , so i dont normally write on these things. but i just came across this site and decided to see what people would write to me theres a lot thats been on my mind lately and i would like to hear what others have to say. I'm 19 years old. Ive been in only one relationship. One week. Pathetic right? it ended cause Someone told me they heard my boyfriend talking "****" on me. Someone asked him if he and I were having sex. He said, no, which we werent, but he also said, he was "going to." Now, im a virgin, and this is something that I'm very afraid of. A guy using me to say he can get my virginity, which is probably why I am still a virgin today. Well, I was told this a couple days later, and called him, extremely pissed off. He told me I was ridiculous for believing that, he would never say that. He respected me. I wouldnt tell him who said it, because I hate the drama. He told me to never speak to him again. Curious and hurt, I asked the guy he supposedly said this to if my ex. had really said this. he said no. i didnt bother calling for a month and tried to get over him, cause he was so mean about the situation. i eventually gave in and called. he said he was glad to hear from me and we began hanging out. just last week, we ended. again, dramatically. long story, but both of us were at fault. i apologized, he never did. its been about a week. i went from talking to him everyday, to nothing for a week, pathetic again right? so where am i going with this? i feel like im so lost when it comes to relationships. i dont know how to handle it. the first guy i feel like i loved doesnt care for me any more. over one mistake. i know its dumb when girls say they dont think theyll meet anyone else. but i seriously dont. it took me 19 years to actaully fall for someone. and hes an *******---an ******* id do anything for to get back. and i watch girls develop feelings for guys so easily and they are so happy together. why cant i do that? i never go for anyone. i turn guys down all the time. i never get "that feeling" about anyone, except for my first boyfriend. does anyone out there ever get that feeling or am i alone on this? right now, i think i will be single for the rest of my life. its lonely sometimes. im scared because im a virgin also. guys act like its soooo great when a girl is a virgin. yet they cant stay with one because they cant go from having sex, to not . yeah the guy right for me will blah blah. someitmes i think a guy who i lose my virginity to will only be going after that. nothing else. as much as i want to lose it to someone special, at the same time i think being a virgin is just annoying. someone help me out a little. am i being crazy ? i hate this . im so lonely and confused right now. i know im young but its so hard for me to develop feelings for people. what if i never fall in love... a love that is real, not like my last love...someone so quick to cut me off. is this weird?
truckdriving Posted November 30, 2007 Posted November 30, 2007 relax you arent crazy. You dont always get "that feeling" right off the bat sometimes it has to grow as you get to know them. Just because you dont fall in love right away doesnt mean you wont. Find yourself a nice guy who respects you and take it slow. By the way I applaud you for waiting for that "special" someone. I wish I had done that.
truckdriving Posted November 30, 2007 Posted November 30, 2007 I probably dont have to say it but dont have sex just because you are a virgin. its something you should be proud of.
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