Mylife Posted November 30, 2007 Posted November 30, 2007 Ok....so rite when i think i am getting better...i tday rite this very second...have this sudden urge to msg him on msn and talk to him... just to say hey whts up...or something... how pointless...thats not even going to help me...yet i want to do it...y oh y oh y??......its not fair...i know i shouldnt though...so i came here at this time of the night...but i hadn't felt sad about him in days together...and now all of a sudden in like a random second i do??...well its not like real real sad...its more like damn...he was a nice guy kinda feeling... i mean...i dunno if its a good thing or not...but i still do at times visit his facebook profile to see his main pic since i deleted his from my comp...and i also go to see what he has been upto...but thats jsut once a day for like a quick second and only if i jsut happen to see his name as part of my friends...i dnt particularly go and search his name in my friends list and go it...and well its not really every day...just mebbe once in 2 days... well anyways..i thought i was getting better and was almost ready....cuz we dated for 3 months...and i was really into it..first bf...and well now its been 6 weeks since the break up and 5 weeks of nc... and now randomly i feel a bit crappy again???...y does that happpen??...like will these random days of kinda missing him ever end?...and when i see that they have ended...is that when i know i am ready to move on???... i thought i almost was...cuz i had 2 weeks of not missing him...(seeing his fb profile doesnt count...i think )....well i thought ok i dont miss him as much...mebbe i am almost almost ready... but then comes today!!!........THEN WHEN AM I GONNA FULLY GET OVER HIMM??...really how will i know when i am ready??...when i dont think of him at all??...like in anyway...not necessarily thinking as in missing...even random thinking??...when that stops...is that when i am ready???... OR WHEN WHEN??...damn...i wish i was older than 18...and had experienced more relationships to know what is happening...and when i know what part of the healing process i am in...
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