kitkat289 Posted November 27, 2007 Posted November 27, 2007 me n my bf broke up 4months ago but still doesnt feel like v r single cos v've started to talk almost every day now...he was d one who wanted 2 break up as he felt he cudnt live up2 my expectations (he was actually flirting arnd...n i had caught him many a times but still i kept on workin on our rel...all efforts being jus 1-sided) He used 2 be a very committed guy n had told abt me 2 parents...he'd dream of our future every night n wud love 2 share wid me evthin dat he thot/imagines...it was a dream come true 2 have such a faithful guy in my life n i had never imagined in my weiedest dreams dat he cud think of quitting cos he used 2 love me more than i loed him n was really insecure in d beginnin cos of his average luks or wtever n he was soo open 2 me dat he'd discuss all his insecurities,fears wid me. it was all so gr8 but dunno wt happened after 1 n half yr dat he started chattin n making online frns(gals) n wud ask 'em 2 meet...iam not guessin nethin as i had read his gmail chats wid all of 'em.he was flirtng badly n used 2 tell me dat he did all dat cos he had commitment-phobia...or excuses like he was frustread/depressed cos he cudnt get his VISA/got flunked in 1 sub...loads of excuses.But thn wen i used 2 stop talkin 2 him he'd try 2 talk 2 me n once wen heas drunk he booked an air ticket n actually came 2 my city 2 assure meof his love. But after some brk-up n patch-ups he realised it wasnt goin newhr n finally broke up wid me.It hurt me a lot n took me 3-4months to finally accept it. But d thing is dat now dat v talk almost every night i feel v r gettin closer.He keeps reminding me of all those things v did n all those spl moments spent 2gethr n like how much he misses me n every lil thing in me.He told me abt his date n said dat it was so dull...he realised dat he can never fall n love wid any othr gal n b lah blah...actually he's a sentimental person,if iam quiet or wen i keep crackin jokes he starts 2 miss me n gets vocal otherwise he hardlytells me these things which i love 2 hear.
Author kitkat289 Posted November 27, 2007 Author Posted November 27, 2007 Pls tell me guys wat u think of our relationship...sometimes i feel so depressed cos i cant stop thinkin if v'll b 2gether again or not n how wud it b like if v patch-up or how he'd learn not 2 take me 4 granted..... One more thing....aftr our brk-up i had told him few ti mes dat he'll never get 2 c me again (im not sure if he got it but im adament on not meeting him or even showing my face) He's comin here in december end n asked me 2 meet...i told him i cant. Iam not v sure but I wud never want 2 c him atleast dis time...iam so afraid thinkin dat if i meet him,it will feel like b4 n as he loves me a lot he might wanna do things like kissin ,cuddlin....n wt if i get emotional n become vulnerable....afterall he keeps givin me confusing hints or might even ask me 2 patch-up dis time....im quite sure he wont b able 2 resist doin dat bt then i'll feel really miserable if after spending a wonderful time he leaves me all confused n restless. Y shud I give him my time,b'ful moments...things he loves wen he can never gimme "commitment" or wen he can never 'sincerely' want 2 work on things.If he says its better 2 b frns as he's afraid n things cud get messed up again...he's so unsure but still he wants 2 live his life wid me (if things go fine)....y shud i b d one doin things 4 him...wen he cant.Y shud I only worry wen he;s content wid how things r at d moment? I jus want him not 2 take me 4 granted..how can i make him feel at loss or want him 2 do some efforts n make things work? PLZ HELP ME OUT....
amaysngrace Posted November 27, 2007 Posted November 27, 2007 I can't read your post because it's like one giant text. And it's making me a headache.
Author kitkat289 Posted November 27, 2007 Author Posted November 27, 2007 ok...its like v r 2gether but not committed n moreover he tells me every other day dat he loves me but often reminds me dat v r not 2gether anymore like last night he was a lil drunk n was tellin me how he had messed up things.He told me how much i meant to him n dat he always wanted 2 keep me happy n content 4eevr but he feels so sorry now for hurtin me so much n for soo long.I didnt utter a word..i was jus weepin cos i i had started feelin gr8 lately cos of our relationship gettin better n him tryin 2 assure me dat he's not gonna date any1 (even though i hadnt asked him dat) He's comin here in dec n he knws i've told him dat i'll never meet him but im so sure dat he feels i cant resist meetin him.Pls temme wt do i make of d things he says even wen we r havin a gud time now.He says he's not sure n wud never commit in life n he wont propose until 1 day b4 tying d knot 2 dat som1.I knw it sounds weird but i feel he's takin his own time but its takin a toll on me as iam serious n dont want him 2 do timepass wid me.
Art_Critic Posted November 27, 2007 Posted November 27, 2007 Can you repost in complete sentences and not in text speak? Text speak isn't really a good form of communicating an issue as intense as a relationship, and in my opinion it also really isn't an acceptable form of communication on a web forum. ( of course I'm an old fart ) I have tried twice..once this morning when you posted and now to try and understand what is going on and I cannot figure out what you have posted. It gives me a headache as well. Sorry..
BrianG Posted November 27, 2007 Posted November 27, 2007 i agree its too hard to read it because of the texting lingo. You would get a better response with complete sentences no offense
Author kitkat289 Posted November 27, 2007 Author Posted November 27, 2007 sorry to post like that,i wont do it again on this forum but pleaseee tell me how you perceive my situation.I just dont want to be stuck like this.Its been a month that I've continued talking to him but I feel its enough and I have given him eough time already to think over things.He had ended it 4months ago and I was the one who just couldnt cope up and was always chasing him until I learnt it wasnt going anywhere.But then after we stopped talking he began to miss me as before that I hadnt given him time to miss me by kind of stalking him...asking him 2 patch-up and things like that. Now the things are so much changed.We love each other a lot.He's still taking time and learning from what had happened.He wont commit I know but I cant understand how can he be content being this way.We are not together but it never feels like.I feel he wants to commit in future but he wants to be very sure of himself.All this makes me sick everyday as I dont want to be just a timepass.He's not feeling any loss since Iam still with him and he knows Iam not seeing anyone and he tells me the same. He told me he's coming here in december and I told him I wont ever meet him.I think he feels that I cant resist meeting him and that is why he's not much worried about it.I wanna make him feel at loss and want him to realise that being friends is not the way when we are still so much into each other.I would never think of meeting him because If he still says goodbye that would hurt me even more though there's great possibility of him asking to patch-up because its always different when we are with each other and although I feel things may change a lot after we meet but I just cannot take the risk. I've told him that I wont meet him ever because I want him to remember our last memorable days as the happiest moments in life.(Last time,in June he had come here and spent the entire month in my city at a friend's place and we had also travelled to his native place.It was one of the most wonderful days in our 2 year long relationship)I would never want to remember his sad eyes or such hard moments by meeting him.Just the thought of him telling me "Mansi you've been the best thing ever happened to me...I would always miss you so much blah blah" breaks the hell out of me.I cant stand such words that remind me that we have to go separate ways. Please tell me now what you think of my situation?
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