PLAYBRAT Posted November 25, 2007 Posted November 25, 2007 Hi again everyone... I have been spending time on these boards the last few weeks....and though I have found it gives me a MUCH needed perspective, it also keeps me mired in my own misery. I have found that lately I am constantly checking these boards...as a way to STAY angry. I don't want to be angry.I want to be FREE..and that means no longer feeling anything. I think in order to be free..FIRST you have to see the reality of what's happened.....THEN get angry, and make the decision to be done. Lately I have been going through a LOT of ups and downs emotionally. One day I am extremely ANGRY...at myself, at him, at the situation.Then the next day I am ok...even feeling content. Then sad....then angry again. I can't deal with it. I realize after I have been reading these boards for a while..I end up feeling angry all over again. It consumes me for days. I don't know..maybe it's just me.Does this happen to anyone else? Anyway...I am taking a break from the boards for a couple of weeks... The holidays are kinda getting me down as well. I hope these feelings have subsided by Xmas...but we will see. I plan to keep myself very busy for the next couple weeks and to avoid anything to do with xmm....MAYBE it is ME who is perpetuating my own misery. I just want to see if a break will help. I hope to talk to you all very soon......and hope everyone is doing well....
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