simplegirl Posted November 24, 2007 Posted November 24, 2007 My friend and I refer to "third verse" as the point when I have had enough and I am ready to end it. We got the term from the song Stay by Sugarland because it is that verse that she realizes she needs more. I have been reading the posts for a while and realizing that now I am 3.5 years into this and while we have gotten a lot closer I am still not being fulfilled or in relationship that gives me what I need. I would like to think I am there completely but I am realistic and I have to take it one day at a time. Last night was a big help in the right direction though. My MM and I spent the evening riding 4 wheelers with his brother and 3 of his friends. It was so much fun but it opened my eyes to the situation. When we were with "our" group we were distant and didn't talk much. Not because they don't know but because he doesn't want his friends to know there are feelings involved, we've had this talk. Then him and I met up with another group of people that we didn't know and hung out for a while. We got to be like "us." We stood around the fire with his arm around me and just hung out. As we rode off he told me how much he loved me. While I could have stayed in that moment forever I realized that is something I can't have. It is very hard for me to accept this so if you post please don't bash. I've heard it all before! In the 3.5 years I have been "with" him, the first 2.5, maybe even more, I didn't really want him. I cared about him and stuff but I knew he was married and I couldn't have him. In the last year we got a lot closer and talked about our future and so forth and that just sucked me in further. I know his R with her is really on the rocks and is pretty much not going to get better whether I am in the picture or not but how much longer can I really sit and wait for him all the time? I have a very fulfilled life in all other aspects but I deserve to be fulfilled in all areas of my life. Now hopefully I can stick to my guns and not "melt" every time I see him.
Author simplegirl Posted November 25, 2007 Author Posted November 25, 2007 I actually met my MM the day my divorce was supposed to be final (got postponed for 2 weeks, another story) so I was in no shape for any kind of "real" relationship. A little over a year ago I met someone and started dating and we were pretty serious. At that point I quit seeing my MM for a few months but when that ended I went right back to him. So I guess what I am saying is no, I don't think he held me back completely from meeting someone.
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