Do you ever feel like this?

[asilisa]

I don't know where I'm headed in this post but just bare with me because these are my thoughts...

 

So I knew pretty early on that my ex and I wouldn't work out...he was controlling, didn't understand my strong family bond or like it, didn't want kids, made me feel like something was wrong with me and the list could go on...

 

At times it was like he was two different people...he could be so cold and mean and then the next day he was back to being so sweet. As our relationship progressed things got better I guess. But now I'm starting to wonder if things got better or I "learned" how to avoid his tantrums. I'm also starting to wonder if something is really wrong with me because who would continue a relationship with a person, for four years, if they could actually see what a bad person they were? I can't say it was desperation but I just love/loved him. I know that's stupid. Now that we are broken up it becomes frustrating to miss and love someone that I feel doesn't really deserve it. I know this doesn't make sense but sometimes I feel like something is really wrong with me. He wasn't a great boyfriend...yet he broke up with me? Everyone tells me I deserve better or could do better but why did he break up with me? Well, good night all.

 

--Lisa

[Sw3etdev1L]

He broke up with you, because..you didn't break up with him first hehe...What does that really matter when things are not going strong??...four years is soo much. It's alright if you ask yourself those kinds of things, I asked myself that same question about two weeks ago. And the thing is I didn't get a different answer such as the one I already knew...When things are just not working, they are not working and if he was not heading your direction because he was not sane, then how was that going to work out?? I guess it all worked out better for you because now, you can go and find yourself someone who is really w orth it. I tell myself that same thing because it is true.