sedgwick Posted November 19, 2007 Posted November 19, 2007 And I think it was perfect. I felt a great sense of relief afterwards. It says: "This is Sedgwick. I don't know if you have tried to contact me since the last time we spoke. I blocked all your contact info and ran off alone to Mexico for 2 months. Book is due Jan 15. Please don't contact me before then, but if you want to contact me after that date I would like to talk to you. I love you. Unconditionally, always. I told the truth."
cant let go Posted November 20, 2007 Posted November 20, 2007 Sedg, Good for you. Honesty is always best even if we have to feel a little vulnerable in the process. I hope this will help get you through the hard times you have been having recently. Since you have requested that he not contact you even if he wanted to, you shouldn't feel anger if he doesn't. Until January 15th that is. Times will still be tough, I'm sure. I'm here following your story and pulling for you. I know I mostly only reply around here and try to give advice rather than seek it. But, truth is that I'm not really doing so well coping myself. I cry daily and on the weekends I usually sob intermittently throughout the day. Sometimes I'm angry, sometimes just really sad. I hate that I know what to do, but I just don't want to do it. I know that it is out of my hands but I want so badly to have him back. Like you, I have a lot of pride. I refuse to let him see me having anything less than a great time. If he is around, I make sure that I'm smiling and everything is funny. I just don't understand how he can justify dumping me for that little b!*tch. Maybe my friends are just being nice, but they all say that it can't last with her. He'll never have what he had with me, etc. I wish I could believe that. I mean it's already lasted longer than I thought it should have. I just keep thinking, he's going to f'ing marry this girl. That's the way it would have to go. I'll be pining over him forever and he's going to marry this one because she'll go out for a run with him or because she's just as stubborn as he is. He'll marry her because she is just like him and what he is really looking for in a partner is himself. Augh! Sorry for the breakdown in the middle of your thread. I just want back the guy who told me that when we are married we will have both of our families come to our house for christmas so that we would never have to choose which ones to visit. I want the guy who would introduce me to people as "his better half". These upcoming holidays are going to be so rough. I just wish I knew that he missed me for even just one moment. But he would never admit that to anyone even if he did. clg
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