serendip Posted November 19, 2007 Posted November 19, 2007 I've been doing really well the last week. I went on a couple of dates this past weekend. Nothing to get excited about but it was good none the less. I came to the realization (finally) and ask myself this question...why would I want someone that just dismiss me so fast? I mean she use me for support and love when we first started the long distance....then someone she was attracted to came back into her town...she just dismiss our relationship and now citing the distance became too hard all of a sudden. Why would I want someone like that in my life? So I got that through my thick skull...and I was really doing better...until a friend of mine said she heard on the news that winds of 80 miles per hr were hitting the ex's little coastal town. I was kind of worried about her...so I decided to check her local newspaper online to see the damage report and on the front cover is a picture of her and some other people at a gala. She looked great and was super happy in photo. My heart just ached...oh man. I haven't seen her since before our breakup when she visited me in April. We don't do facebook or any other things like that. The picture of her did a real number on me.
Jmina Posted November 19, 2007 Posted November 19, 2007 I've been doing really well the last week. I went on a couple of dates this past weekend. Nothing to get excited about but it was good none the less. I came to the realization (finally) and ask myself this question...why would I want someone that just dismiss me so fast? I mean she use me for support and love when we first started the long distance....then someone she was attracted to came back into her town...she just dismiss our relationship and now citing the distance became too hard all of a sudden. Why would I want someone like that in my life? just stick to this hun. someone will give you those feelings again one day and they will treat you right aswell. then you will know why it didnt work with her. xxx
Author serendip Posted November 19, 2007 Author Posted November 19, 2007 Thank you But I've gotten over the need to know why it didn't work out with her. It was just seeing a picture of her for the first time since april...all dressed up and looking as happy as can be As soon as we broke up I put away everything....especially pictures. The only I allow myself were just snapshots from my mind. Just crazy how one picture of my ex can make me ache
sedgwick Posted November 19, 2007 Posted November 19, 2007 I had the same exact experience this past week...saw a picture of him looking all happy and it broke my heart. Awful. I guess I just have to realize that there are pictures out there of me since the breakup looking happy also, and I'm not. I'm smiling but hurting tremendously inside. So just realize that she could be as well!!
Jmina Posted November 19, 2007 Posted November 19, 2007 thats just what i thought too sedgwick. you dont know what she is really feeling. so there is no point in deciding she is happier without you. just decide that you will better off without her. x
Author serendip Posted November 19, 2007 Author Posted November 19, 2007 Well if you saw the picture...she is definately happy...no denying that But that shouldn't bother me....in fact I shouldn't care if she is happy or not but I'm human and seeing a picture of her for the first time since our breakup whether happy or sad...affects me I guess I should have never check the possible damage reports from the wind. I guess I just wanted to see if she was alright
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