look at what we do to ourselves

[wanda98]

I am reading this forum like I always do and somethings struck me about all those people out there that are feeling the same as meI am like most people on here, a sufferer of consequences of anothers lies, a sufferer of a broken heart. And like most I carry that feeling of emptiness, of time wasted in my stomach day in and day out. Look at what we do to ourselves, we suffer on in silence and watch as the ones that broke our hearts get on with their lives and be happy. I look at my ex on facebook with his new partner and her new baby smiling and laughing and enjoying life and the pain just wrenches my stomach and I just wish the earth would swallow me up…..and yes I am doing it to myself, because I am the one that is looking at his facebook page…. and trying to find some sort of indication in his eyes that he feels the same way, that he is feeling the loss too. I am looking for something that never existed and never will – closure, an ending…..My brain tells me I will never get it, my heart keeps hoping.We feel the pain and inflict the pain on ourselves daily with things that we see and hear constant reminders of what we have lost. We make ourselves angry, keep ourselves up at night, repeat conversations over and over in our mind, and relive moments spent when we thought we would be happy forever. What are we doing, spending time thinking about these people that have ruined our happiness, taken precious years away that we can never get back? Why do we let thoughts of them rule our minds, our hearts – when its clear that they aren’t doing the same? Why do we devote so much head space to them and live in a cloud while life is passing us bySorry for the ramble, but it beats talking about him……………again.

[bigheartkindsoul]

I am reading this forum like I always do and somethings struck me about all those people out there that are feeling the same as meI am like most people on here, a sufferer of consequences of anothers lies, a sufferer of a broken heart. And like most I carry that feeling of emptiness, of time wasted in my stomach day in and day out. Look at what we do to ourselves, we suffer on in silence and watch as the ones that broke our hearts get on with their lives and be happy. I look at my ex on facebook with his new partner and her new baby smiling and laughing and enjoying life and the pain just wrenches my stomach and I just wish the earth would swallow me up…..and yes I am doing it to myself, because I am the one that is looking at his facebook page…. and trying to find some sort of indication in his eyes that he feels the same way, that he is feeling the loss too. I am looking for something that never existed and never will – closure, an ending…..My brain tells me I will never get it, my heart keeps hoping.We feel the pain and inflict the pain on ourselves daily with things that we see and hear constant reminders of what we have lost. We make ourselves angry, keep ourselves up at night, repeat conversations over and over in our mind, and relive moments spent when we thought we would be happy forever. What are we doing, spending time thinking about these people that have ruined our happiness, taken precious years away that we can never get back? Why do we let thoughts of them rule our minds, our hearts – when its clear that they aren’t doing the same? Why do we devote so much head space to them and live in a cloud while life is passing us bySorry for the ramble, but it beats talking about him……………again.

 

You speak very wise words, not a ramble, made sense to me for sure.

 

I donno why we do it to ourselves, it just isb't that easy not too but I am trying to get back the anger I first had and as I did then use it to make myself better, more confident, more sucessful, more happy and basically a big fck you to him (but not too him) I want to do these things for myself now, I just use the anger as a kick up the jacksy.

 

Lets beat this diease together and support each other with positive ideas and thoughts for each other.

 

BTW - stop looking at facebook just delete him, or just don't look. It is not worth it and only you suffer because of it hunny.

 

xxx