Quinch Posted November 18, 2007 Posted November 18, 2007 I know I'm not the only person on LS that has felt like this lately, but right now - this Sunday night - I'm really struggling to keep going. I've been fighting depression for a few years and right now I feel like I can't fight any more. I've got nothing left in me. I'm just fighting a losing battle and wearing myself out in the process. Life feels like one bombshell or disappointment hitting me after another. Nothing ever goes right no matter how much I try. People keep taking more and more from me, making more demands on my time and energy, and I get nothing in return except the **** end of the stick. Every way I turn I just get kicked in the head and I don't see any end to this. I've been walking through this dark tunnel for too long and there is still no light at the end. I'm just completely exhausted - physically, metally and emotionally drained until the smallest thing can send me over the edge into despair. Right now I don't know if I even have the energy to care any more.
bigheartkindsoul Posted November 18, 2007 Posted November 18, 2007 I know I'm not the only person on LS that has felt like this lately, but right now - this Sunday night - I'm really struggling to keep going. I've been fighting depression for a few years and right now I feel like I can't fight any more. I've got nothing left in me. I'm just fighting a losing battle and wearing myself out in the process. Life feels like one bombshell or disappointment hitting me after another. Nothing ever goes right no matter how much I try. People keep taking more and more from me, making more demands on my time and energy, and I get nothing in return except the **** end of the stick. Every way I turn I just get kicked in the head and I don't see any end to this. I've been walking through this dark tunnel for too long and there is still no light at the end. I'm just completely exhausted - physically, metally and emotionally drained until the smallest thing can send me over the edge into despair. Right now I don't know if I even have the energy to care any more. Hey hun It might be Sunday, but it is also freezing cold, raining and dark. Part of probably why your feeling a bit low is SAD, seasonal effective disorder - alot of people in the UK get it. Someone from here told me about lightbulbs on Amazon.co.uk and I have ordered one. Like here can be demanding and sometimes feels like you get little in return but we do, in a round about kinda way. You are a great person, look at the kind words you have said and given me when I have been struggling with myself. Have you thought about booking a holiday, to help ease the exhaustion and tiredness also will give you something in the near future to focus on and keep you going. It worked for me hunny. {{{{{hugs}}}}}
coco_milkshake Posted November 18, 2007 Posted November 18, 2007 Here is a big hug for you Quinch ((((hug)))). I know how you feel sweets. Just know that you are not alone and try and take each day as it comes and dont stress yourself out soo much. xxxxx
bigheartkindsoul Posted November 18, 2007 Posted November 18, 2007 Worried about you Quinch, let us know your ok. xxx
Lyssa Posted November 19, 2007 Posted November 19, 2007 Quinch - I'm sorry to hear you're having those days... Please try to take one day at a time... [[[Quinch]]]
Author Quinch Posted November 19, 2007 Author Posted November 19, 2007 I'm okay. I met a good friend for lunch. She listened to me pour my heart out then gave me a big hug. I needed that hug more than you can imagine. Thank you all for your support. xxx
Author Quinch Posted November 22, 2007 Author Posted November 22, 2007 I'm trying to take things one day at a time but today has been really crappy. I went for a check-up at my new NHS dentist and didn't get on with them at all. They made me two appointments for a filling and something else but I'm not going back there. They can pucker up and kiss my ass. I'll find another dentist even if it means waiting another year. By the time I arrived at work I was so pissed that I tore into the carpark at 40mph and pulled a handbrake turn before I slammed into a wall. My boss saw it and verbally reprimanded me for "showing off". I wasn't showing off - I was pissed off. My company are such a bunch of assclowns. If I wasn't being made redundant in February I would tell them exactly where to stick their job. Basically I've had real trouble keeping it all together. My life sucks right now and I feel absolutely pathetic because I can't change it.
Lostgurl Posted November 22, 2007 Posted November 22, 2007 Hang in there Quinch. Things are going to get better for you! They always do, you'll see. You just need to hang on and try to stay positive. I know that's tough when you are down and out, but it does help. Stay busy. Hang out with some friends or go for lunch again, and talk and get everything out of your system. Or just rant here, we're listening >--< here's a hug for you.
Author Quinch Posted November 22, 2007 Author Posted November 22, 2007 Thanks Lg. 2008 is going to be MY year at last. It can't be any worse than 2007 has been.
sb129 Posted November 22, 2007 Posted November 22, 2007 I'm trying to take things one day at a time but today has been really crappy. I went for a check-up at my new NHS dentist and didn't get on with them at all. They made me two appointments for a filling and something else but I'm not going back there. They can pucker up and kiss my ass. I'll find another dentist even if it means waiting another year. . PM me. I can help you with that.
Lostgurl Posted November 22, 2007 Posted November 22, 2007 Thanks Lg. 2008 is going to be MY year at last. With that attitude, i'm sure 2008 will be great
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