chall24503 Posted November 17, 2007 Posted November 17, 2007 I went an seen a kidney doctor yesterday regarding my results and well he ordered a Kidney Biopsy asap. I will be admiited Monday to have this procedure done. I told my stbxh and well he stated he wants to be involved with this. I am taken back with this. Depending on the outcome of this procedure, should I be ok with him supporting me through this? I started to get sick before he moved out and well getting sicker as I also walk the road of seperation. Handling allot. We have problems and he moved out and I get sick. He says he will be there for me through this. In one way I want him too but another part of me is mad that he left and well has easily turned off our love for one another. I know he has been out with another but he has not admitted, nor denied. I know him well enough and can read him. He is guilty. Should I do this alone or allow him to be a part of this even while we are seperated? Confused.
WaterTiger Posted November 17, 2007 Posted November 17, 2007 I know you're angry with him (and rightly so) BUT... He cares enough to give you some support and I don't think this is something you want to go through alone. Give him a chance.
LakesideDream Posted November 18, 2007 Posted November 18, 2007 Having been falsely diagnosed with "terminal cancer", with only days to live (in fact I had a potentially fatal strep infection) two years after my divorce, I can tell you what I did. I didn't want to see my ex wife, I was still in the "I hate the slut" frame of mind, and rebuffed her good wishes. I am not sorry I did. Had I had someone who actually loved me romanticly at that time it would have been a huge plus. I didn't so I got through it alone.
Author chall24503 Posted November 20, 2007 Author Posted November 20, 2007 Well the procedure went fine, I am back at home. The doctor has me out for the week on bed rest. My stbxh was there for me through the whole thing all the way until we came home and well as much discomfort I was in from my biopsy we had sexual relations. Why did we do this I dont know. We have distantance from one another since seperation and had several weaknesses but yesterday just being together all day made it so hard last night. The doctor is rushing the results and I should know something tomorrow. Hope good news. I feel gulity about last night with one part of me, the other part says he still loves you. I dont know why I did that thinking he has been with someone else during our seperation. I am crazy. Trying to remove myself from him, it is hard. I am still very attracted to him and inlove. How do you stop that from happening? Why would we give in? Why would I do that with somone who has decided to walk away from this marriage? Am I twisted?
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