hamster Posted November 12, 2007 Posted November 12, 2007 Hi, im kinda in need of some advice... To cut a long story short ive been with my bf for a year and 7 months and it has been very turbulant at times. We both love each other very very much but my bf always had problems forgetting the past (unfortunately some of the past kinda creeped in when we were first meeting) I didn't help myself by lying about a few things not because I wanted to lie and hurt him but more because I was ashamed of things I have done and didnt want him to be any more ashamed of me. So weve tried to work things out so many times but this time im scared he wants our break to be forever. He told me that it was just as much his fault for not letting things go as much as it is mine for keeping things from him. I am very grateful for the fact that he still loves me but its because of this that im really struggling to cope. Hes the kind of guy that doesnt know what to do when someones upset so im trying so hard not to ring him etc. Ive done pretty well fighting my urges apart from the odd txt ive sent and an email at first to explain my feelings. I know hes right about our problems and that we shouldnt argue the way we do but I cant help loving him so much and wanting to do everything so save us. Im truely in love with this man and I know he love me so much too. Weve just spent time travelling together and ive done so much with him I cant let him just leave my life, especially when i know this is not what he wants. To top it off hes having a birthday party in 2 weeks and im so scared about it, i really want to go so i can see him but i dont want to get upset there. He said he wants me there, surely this is a sign he still wants me? Sorry if it sounds all muddled, its just the way im feeling right now. Im really strong when it comes to fighting together but without him i feel so weak. Do I call him and talk to him?
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