Author bigheartkindsoul Posted November 12, 2007 Author Posted November 12, 2007 well I do that on here, to my virtual life, I certainly don't walk around in RL like it. Surely better to get out my feelings on here and any upset I am feeling that doing it every night and day here? Am I weak, well yeah a break up tends to do that to you esp if you have been to hell and back, should I pretend to have a strong online persona just to satisfy the odd person. Or should I feel I have a place where I can open up and vent a few feelings. I didn't realise that coming on LS and venting equated to DRAMA QUEEN, sure others suffering are really glad to hear those types of comments. If I cannot do it here then where??? Yet on the posts where I have bigged myself up, you get people questioning that, saying I shouldn't do it. So lose lose situation. i thought this is an open forum for those to seek help, comfort, advice on things?? Well just giving me more reasons to give the fck up really, damned if I do damned if I don't.
sedgwick Posted November 12, 2007 Posted November 12, 2007 Oh sweetie, I totally know these feelings. All of them. And they suck. And you need a therapist, yes. Etc. I can't stop flogging myself for every little thing I could possibly have done that might not have been good enough for him. I hope we can both stop doing it soon. In my heart of hearts, I know I was probably too good to him, but what am I supposed to do, be a bitch so I can get a boyfriend? It sucks...it just sucks.
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