SunnyLady Posted November 7, 2007 Posted November 7, 2007 I feel so horrible. My ex left about 7weeks ago, I thought i was doing fine... but for the past few days i cry all the time. Or hold back myself from crying. Right now im trying to do an important essay...and the tears just started flowing. I don't know what's wrong. Its like im going through the breakup all over again. Im used to life without him but i miss him so much. I feel so sad. Tears are pouring down and i don;t know how to help myself. I don't know why i feel this way after so long? I thought i was doing fine. I thought i was getting stronger. Now i think about him all the time, im in the library now and i am crying anc can't help myself. Why is it all coming back now? I thought as every day went past, ild get better, not relapse like i seem to be doing. Maybe im feeling this way cos this is the first time iv gone through a breakup without another guy coming in the picture to take my mind off the latter. Maybe cos this is my first time of going through a break alone...without anyone else. I want to be strong, i want to do it but i feel so weak. I don;t know what to do... i wish this sorrow would go. I wish these tears would stop. I wish this hurt and lonliness would stop. The tears can't stop flowing.
MattyTee Posted November 7, 2007 Posted November 7, 2007 Hey Sunny, I'm sorry that this is a hard time for you *hugs* Someone mentioned something on here once (I can't remember who) about the body releasing emotions as and when you're ready to cope with more. It makes sense to me and it certainly fits with the feeling of being on a roller-coaster. The worst thing is when these low moments come when you have to do something else (like an essay or work) ... I'm sorry you are having to go through that now. If you need to talk I'm here - although I'm not sure whether I can cheer you up much, I'm a mopey git today
bigheartkindsoul Posted November 7, 2007 Posted November 7, 2007 I read your bit hun about not getting over one guy without another one coming along - I would recommend reading starting over in the men are from mars and women are from venus selection. Its all about how to get over heartbreak, making sure you do not move onto the next until you have healed properly and learnt from some of the mistakes made before. Your bad times will make way for better ones in time. You have to look after yourself and let yourself heal.
Author SunnyLady Posted November 8, 2007 Author Posted November 8, 2007 Thanks guys!! I feel much better now.. Letting out all the emptions really helped. Bigheartsoul, will check for the book in stores tomorrow. I hope it does wonders for me too:laugh:. i do hope you are feeling better now... Lol---im sorry for nicking your title! :eek:Lol. You see it captured what the way i was feeling at that point in time and i was in too much of a state to think up a title. . Its been edited now though...wonder how? Matty, you mentioned something about my system being able to take more, hence the rollercoaster feeling? That really got me up! Its nice to know what caused this awful breakdown today. Where did you get that infromation from---do you remember the post exactly? Would love to read further on it. Hope you're not feeling as pooly as you were earlier. And you are so right, i was trying to work on an essay when the tears came through. It was awful, felt like i would never stop.
MattyTee Posted November 8, 2007 Posted November 8, 2007 I'm glad to hear you feel better Sunny I honestly can't remember who said that about the system being able to take more - I'll have a look and see if I can find the post
bigheartkindsoul Posted November 8, 2007 Posted November 8, 2007 I tried to post you this morning then my PC went on the "BIG FREEZE" on me right in the middle of what I was typing to you!! Anyway glad you are feeling better hun. It is one major rollercoaster to begin with but like me the ups and downs are less and less, so are the thoughts, and even when I do feel low, it is not really dark there like it was before where I just wanted my life to be pain free and would have killed myself if not for some very good friends and great words and advice from them. Get the book its a good read, you need to fully get over this ex I think before even thinking about another relationship, also need to learn to like single life and get some hobbies and a full life of your own, so that when the next does come along it is too enhance your life not make a life for you. Hope that makes sense. ((((hugs)))) and no you are not alone and we will help you along the way.
Author SunnyLady Posted November 8, 2007 Author Posted November 8, 2007 "Anyway glad you are feeling better hun. It is one major rollercoaster to begin with but like me the ups and downs are less and less, so are the thoughts, and even when I do feel low, it is not really dark there like it was before where I just wanted my life to be pain free and would have killed myself if not for some very good friends and great words and advice from them." You are so correct! Its geting better day by day. Life seems to have a purpose now and i realise there is a lot to happen. Good stuff hopefully:) "Get the book its a good read, you need to fully get over this ex I think before even thinking about another relationship, also need to learn to like single life and get some hobbies and a full life of your own, so that when the next does come along it is too enhance your life not make a life for you." Hope that makes sense. Makes a ton of sense! An error i made was building my life on my partner. Making him responsible for my happiness and sadness! Big mistake. I havent been able to access a bookstore but hope to do so this weekend. Thanks again )) Matty too. It helps soo much coming on here! Actually like therapy. And to think we don't even know each other personally yet offer SO much support. The world is not so bad afterll:). You guys understand things my friends don't. Or things im embarrsed to say to people around me. Hope you are feeling better now. Today was a good day... glad the weekend's nearly here. Time to relax and enjoy the simple things of life. xx
MattyTee Posted November 8, 2007 Posted November 8, 2007 Hey Sunny! Glad to hear you are feeling better today I think I'm feeling a bit better today but it's hard to tell - I have my therapy sessions on Thursday morning and those knock the wind out of me a bit. Anyway, keep smiling
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