Sanslatete Posted November 7, 2007 Posted November 7, 2007 These hit every now and then but I still can't believe she's moved on! I realised today that the entire last year she spent here she would have been thinking about it. Perhaps she was moving on while she was with me ... ugh ... I feel crap! I'm with you on that one Matty, I've had a difficult few weeks of late. It's hard to go on when you realise it's truly over and she must've been getting over me while we were still together this time last year. It's heartbreaking. I feel like shyt but I'm trying to soldier on, need to strap big balls on like you did, but it's easier said than done sometimes.
Scorpio13c Posted November 7, 2007 Posted November 7, 2007 These hit every now and then but I still can't believe she's moved on! I realised today that the entire last year she spent here she would have been thinking about it. Perhaps she was moving on while she was with me ... ugh ... I feel crap! Hey Matty, Remember when i asked you if a friend of yours treated you badly(to say the least) would you feel bad about moving on without them(something to that effect)? In essence, when you start to have these down times, believe me i know, ask yourself this: "Do i really care this much about someone, who doesn't give a S**t about me?", "Why am i really feeling down right now, is it because i am alone without them, or just alone?" Your not alone man! One day, i'll cross the pond for a visit, we'll have a couple pints & laugh at our past & rejoice our new triumphs:) Scorp
Author MattyTee Posted November 7, 2007 Author Posted November 7, 2007 *lol* Scorp! You make me smile man! The thing is, I do care about her I love her dearly. I'm actually okay not being with her in my heart - it's just the other emotions, ego and stuff that get in the way Up up up up Appreciate the pep dude
Author MattyTee Posted November 7, 2007 Author Posted November 7, 2007 I'm with you on that one Matty, I've had a difficult few weeks of late. It's hard to go on when you realise it's truly over and she must've been getting over me while we were still together this time last year. It's heartbreaking. I feel like shyt but I'm trying to soldier on, need to strap big balls on like you did, but it's easier said than done sometimes. Hey Sans man, Keep strong bro, we're going through this together and you know what ... we'll come out of it. Remember, XXXL Balls
Author MattyTee Posted November 7, 2007 Author Posted November 7, 2007 :lmao:.. hehehehe.. that is funny Matty.. thanks for the giggle. I too read your blog, made me smile, made me cry .. keep writing Can relate to that one.. things do hit you all of a sudden.. one minute up, the next minute down, but slowly slowly, there will be more ups than downs. Sorry to hear you're feeling crap again, tomorrow is another day! I'm starting to feel guilty now, making all these people miserable with my blog Thanks for the support k
Scorpio13c Posted November 7, 2007 Posted November 7, 2007 *lol* Scorp! You make me smile man! The thing is, I do care about her I love her dearly. I'm actually okay not being with her in my heart - it's just the other emotions, ego and stuff that get in the way Up up up up Appreciate the pep dude Matty, I'm not immune either, was just pointing out a different perspective on things, which you sometimes need others to point out. When i talk to my friends & re-iterate how i felt i was treated, it's almost like your blogging, it's a release & it reminds me that i deserve better than that. It's a tough thing, seperating ego, logic & emotions, but that's exactly what i'm trying to show you. When you feel emotional(sad, love etc.) try to look at the logical(she didn't/doesn't love me, treated me badly?)way. You see, we can choose to feel either side of this "Teeter Totter", it's a matter of choice, sad, or o.k.. I'm not saying it'll work everytime, but i believe it not only helps through the bumps, but also over the long haul, to heal. I'm sure you've already done this & haven't even realized it. I'm talking about those times when you just don't feel the stress of it anymore, you just feel o.k., know what i mean? These are the times we're actually accepting, even if it initially lasts for a short time. You'll find that these o.k. times last longer & longer, as time goes on. Up Up Up my friend! Scorp
Author MattyTee Posted November 7, 2007 Author Posted November 7, 2007 I understand Scorp! I think sometimes I just don't want to get over her. I still find it hard to believe she cares so little about me. But there are times when I smile and feel ok and I'm sure they will keep coming.
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