What a horrible day

[MattyTee]

Do you ever get those days when you seem to be followed by a dark cloud?

 

I've been feeling miserable as sin today and all belief in anything good or positive or even love has sort of splodged away like snot in the wind. Even my very poetic blog has suffered.

 

Meh

[wowIlose]

Been having a difficult day myself. For a good week I was able to put her out of my mind reassuring myself shes worthless to me but today I missed her a lot. Shes been on MSN all day but I didn't unblock her... sticking with NC. Freakin BS I tell ya, these things should be easier lol.

[amaysngrace]

I had a crap day too. Nothing special. Nothing meaningful. I went to my BFs house to get some bamboo, hoping it would spark my creative juices so I could get my mind more centered. But it's still sitting in my car.

 

Some days are much better when they become yesterday.

[brothermartin]

You were one of the first people that helped me get through my first rough days MATTY, so Im gonna help you.

If you're a guy like most guys, you can try what helps me. All the things that guys like! Hooters! Action movies! Strip clubs! Liquor! Flirting with women! Buy yourself a new pair of shoes!:lmao:Well, maybe not that, but you get the idea. Do something nice for yourself man! Anything, no matter how small or stupid it may seem. Cheer up man, everything will be OK.

[Crestfallen_KH]

Me too! I don't know if it's the Monday blues or what. I had one of those "sit on the shower floor and just bawl" days.

 

I had a pretty decent weekend, but today I've just been feeling really bummed. I agreed to meet a friend for dinner tonight, though. I'm hoping that will help improve my mood.

[MattyTee]

Aww folks, *hugs* to you all.

 

I've spent the last 2 / 3 hours writing my blog. It was kinda murky stuff today, feeling pretty low.

 

I'm going to go and buy myself some new Jean-Claude Van Damme shoes with pictures of hooters on the top!! That's like three birds with one stone

 

Writing does help though, I still feel miserable but I should be able to sleep at least.

[brothermartin]

No where to go but up, hommie!

[amaysngrace]

No where to go but up, hommie!

 

Actually it could always be worse.

[hopeforlove243]

I was ok at work, but the minute I got into my car to go home, I started crying

I did find two posts on LS today, I think would be helpful for everyone.

 

http://www.loveshack.org/forums/showthread.php?t=56954&page=1

http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t54435/

[ncpd25]

Hi All,

Sign me up for feeling like trash today as well. To be quite honest, I've been NC for the past 7 weeks and I'm still rifling thoughts through my head about my ex. Out of any given day, I might have only a few of hours where I can pick myself up and wipe myself off.

 

I thought things would have gotten better by now. I guess they have since the break-up (7 weeks ago) but I'm not as far along as I'd like to be (Are any of us???).

 

I'm just thinking about it too much!!

[cant let go]

I thought things would have gotten better by now. I guess they have since the break-up (7 weeks ago) but I'm not as far along as I'd like to be (Are any of us???).

 

I'm just thinking about it too much!!

 

you made me think about something here ncpd25.

 

is it possible that this forum is a crutch for some of us? perhaps the company of all of our misery is only hurting us in the end? just some food for thought.

 

if anyone made it through my extremely long pilot post on this forum you would have read that i like to challenge topics to debate even if i don't necessarily believe in the opposing viewpoint. i think this forum is quite beneficial but i can see the downside of becoming too dependent on it. i have only just joined a few weeks back and it has been 5 1/2 weeks since my breakup so i'm not expecting to be over this yet. so at 7 weeks i doubt i will be closer than i am right now. i just know that at some point i will stop logging in everyday. i hope that you all reach that point too and maybe we will meet again on a happier message board.

 

I'm sorry you are all having sad days. I'm actually having a pretty decent day. I know that I will likely have a few more bad than good days this week. But just to help keep hope alive: There's a good chance tomorrow could be your good day.

[funkybassplayer]

you made me think about something here ncpd25.

 

is it possible that this forum is a crutch for some of us? perhaps the company of all of our misery is only hurting us in the end? just some food for thought.

 

if anyone made it through my extremely long pilot post on this forum you would have read that i like to challenge topics to debate even if i don't necessarily believe in the opposing viewpoint. i think this forum is quite beneficial but i can see the downside of becoming too dependent on it. i have only just joined a few weeks back and it has been 5 1/2 weeks since my breakup so i'm not expecting to be over this yet. so at 7 weeks i doubt i will be closer than i am right now. i just know that at some point i will stop logging in everyday. i hope that you all reach that point too and maybe we will meet again on a happier message board.

 

I'm sorry you are all having sad days. I'm actually having a pretty decent day. I know that I will likely have a few more bad than good days this week. But just to help keep hope alive: There's a good chance tomorrow could be your good day.

 

Take note of that post, its a very good point. In the first 2 months of my break-up i was here 24/7 then i stopped, and i also stopped feeling as low as i have been. Reading and writting about things will keep you in the hole, so although at first it helps, after it can keep bringing you back to your low place. Im back here after 6 months as i like to help people, and feel that as it has been 6 months,(and a hard 6 months and im still not 100% at all, i feel i really have leant and grown, and taken a different rought in life, so if i can help some1 i will, but i guess im in the postion to say, things really will get better, but beware that this site can keep you in a low place, or bring up your own hurt. Look at other ones, dating sites, and stuff, have a flirt its fun! .

[bustertypsy]

I'm a bit like that too Mattytee,It's a nasty feeling.I am now into my fourth week of NC.This is how it has gone.First week,no problem,sure she'll be back with her tail between her legs.Second week,out of the blue,SUDDEN realisation that she is GONE.Third week,can't work,eat,see anybody.Just want to be on my own.

Now I am coping a bit better,functioning,should I say.

Actually felt quite good yesterday.Wow! I am over her now,life goes on!

Then this morning,that cloud you mentioned,well,it's following me around.

So it's a bit like stopping smoking (as I know).You think you have beaten the urge,when suddenly the desire comes back,with a vengeance.

All I can do during these moments is ride the storm.I do pray for relief too,that helps also.

Knowing I am not the only one who feels this way is also consolation,though I would be even happier ,if your news was positive.

Lets ride out this storm together Matt,until the sun shines it's way back into our lives.

 

 

Buster:love:

[Spinderella]

I'm going to go and buy myself some new Jean-Claude Van Damme shoes with pictures of hooters on the top!! That's like three birds with one stone

LOL.

I agree with the posters saying that constantly writing about pain, can keep you stuck in a state of mind. But what would you do with your blog Matt???

[MattyTee]

*lol* Are you saying my blog is miserable?

 

I guess I'd have to write happy thoughts.

[bigheartkindsoul]

Sadness breeds sadness but happiness breeds happiness!

 

I know its not easy I have been there, in fact I have been worse with depression and wanting to end my life.

 

But now I walk around with a massive smile on my face, listen to happy or fav music, appreciate the sunshine and what a lovely day it is, anything to keep that smile going.

 

Proof that the crap feelings do give way in the end to happy ones, my journey was 4months as at tomorrow.

[Bosiell]

Dude

Just one of those days simple as that. Remember if you can, that above any dark cloud that ole sun is still shining up there, those stinky clouds will pass, of that there is NO doubt.

 

Keep strong fella...

[Bosiell]

Sadness breeds sadness but happiness breeds happiness!

 

I know its not easy I have been there, in fact I have been worse with depression and wanting to end my life.

 

But now I walk around with a massive smile on my face, listen to happy or fav music, appreciate the sunshine and what a lovely day it is, anything to keep that smile going.

 

Proof that the crap feelings do give way in the end to happy ones, my journey was 4months as at tomorrow.

 

 

/clap > Bigheart :bunny:

[MattyTee]

I strapped some big balls on today and my grin is ear to ear! If I don't get sectioned soon, my face is gonna be sore tonight!

[k10k]

lol Matty..

The weirdest thing happened to me last night.. I was reading an article which I found rather funny.. and I actually started to laugh, like a real proper laugh.. there I was, sitting on my sofa, all alone and enjoying myself. First time I've had a proper laugh in ages.. whoohoo.

 

And although I'm feeling a bit "stormy" today, at least I know I can still have those little moments where I feel normal, and dare I say it, happy?.. even if it's just for awhile

[Spinderella]

*lol* Are you saying my blog is miserable?

 

I guess I'd have to write happy thoughts.

 

I just read your blog and it made me laugh, but, yeah its miserable

[bigheartkindsoul]

Read my latest post that'll make you miserable!!

[MattyTee]

Pfff Spind, it's not miserable it's "deep" Anyway, I've found it helps me enormously. I'm glad you got a giggle out of something. There's like 10 days reading matter there by now Besides, if you read it then it must have been at least a tiny bit gripping

 

k10k - Wooohoo!! Laugh away. I managed a laugh yesterday when I realised I hadn't reached my quota of smiles for the day. I had to try a few all at once and that got me going. I also got a good giggle when I was sat in my mother's garden (pitch black) with fireworks going off. I was looking up at this star and thought about how she was out there somewhere in the world under the same star. It was twinkling brightly and it made me cry. Then I realised it was moving ... it was a bloody airplane!!! I wished on an airplane!!! Not sure what the rules are for that...

 

Heart, I'm off to read it now *tissues ready*

[MattyTee]

These hit every now and then but I still can't believe she's moved on!

 

I realised today that the entire last year she spent here she would have been thinking about it. Perhaps she was moving on while she was with me ... ugh ...

 

I feel crap!

[k10k]

I was looking up at this star and thought about how she was out there somewhere in the world under the same star. It was twinkling brightly and it made me cry. Then I realised it was moving ... it was a bloody airplane!!! I wished on an airplane!!! Not sure what the rules are for that...

:lmao:.. hehehehe.. that is funny Matty.. thanks for the giggle.

I too read your blog, made me smile, made me cry .. keep writing

 

These hit every now and then but I still can't believe she's moved on!

 

I realised today that the entire last year she spent here she would have been thinking about it. Perhaps she was moving on while she was with me ... ugh ...

 

I feel crap!

 

Can relate to that one.. things do hit you all of a sudden..

one minute up, the next minute down, but slowly slowly, there will be more ups than downs. Sorry to hear you're feeling crap again, tomorrow is another day!