MsMartha Posted November 2, 2007 Posted November 2, 2007 I thought I shoul move my post here I thought I was being strong. However, I am still sitting here thinking about us. His lies. His gaslighting me. And all I do is cry. Where is that anger that sustains my will? Am I forever doomed? He just went back to the arms of the OW for comfort. I have this forum, and not much else as far as comfort goes. Why does HE get off easy? Why? I left him. It felt great for one hour. Can't even listen to music. Everything remids me of something. Listening to A Change Gone Come Sam Cooke.......... Just makes me cry, but I am trying to believe. Thanks for listening
carrotgirl Posted November 3, 2007 Posted November 3, 2007 Am I forever doomed? No. But for a while you're going to feel like crap. Be gentle with yourself the way you would with a child who's fallen. You've been dealing with a major trauma and it's perfectly sane and normal to be unhappy about it. You don't have to be so strong. Carrot
norajane Posted November 3, 2007 Posted November 3, 2007 You aren't doomed. You are in the midst of the worst pain, and as much as I wish I had the words to help you speed past the worst of it, time is really the only reliable healer. And time is too slow to do you any good right now! It's ok to feel the pain, to wallow, to let it run its course. You are allowed! Don't be hard on yourself. Anger can help displace some of the achy hurt, at least for a time while the rage burns. Later, if you can find some way to realize your ex-h is not all happy-happy...life never is all happy-happy for anyone, much less someone who finds it necessary to lie and cheat to get his way...his house of cards will come crashing down one way or another, sooner or later, and you, fortunately, won't be around to have to wipe his nose clean anymore. You WILL get through this. You WILL. It may not seem like it now, but you WILL. Have faith in yourself and in the healing powers of time.
Author MsMartha Posted November 3, 2007 Author Posted November 3, 2007 Thanks for replying. I was thinking noone cared here either. I needed that Right now I am just staring at the phone Praying for the strenght not to answer or call. I just want him to call. Why? So I can "not" answer.... My will power... No will power..... But thank you all for replying. I read other stories they help a little, and then they hurt b/c I see what maybe lies ahead for me. More pain to come. God help me. Keep your comments coming they help. And again thanks!!
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