Wanted him so bad... I Settled... He emailed me

[Surfer Girl]

4 months b/u... 2.5 months nc... hung out a little at a charity event... 1 month later he e-mails... I ignore the emails... after 4 e-mails I respond... He just wants to talk... We have so much history... 5 years together... I decide to talk... He wants to see me... Too afraid... He doesn't want to get back together.... This weekend see him at the beach... Talk... Very comfortable... I go back to his place to see his renovations.... One thing led to another and we have sex... The best ever... we are talking, laughing and enjoying one another.... He plays our song on the guitar... I mean it was a very enjoyable weekend... I spend the night, we go to breakfast.... No relationship talk

 

I think we both used each other for that one moment in time... I could not help but feel he still has feelings... I could see it in his eyes... The way he looked at me, it was obvious he was very happy to be with me. I very much have feelings for him

 

Since then NC.... He is e-mailing on a dating site now.... I have a feeling he will contact me again... may not be for some time.... I do not initiate contact.... But when he does it is so hard for me to resist....

 

He wanted to casually date... No daily phone calls etc... My feelings are deeper and right now I want to e-mail him about what a great weekend we had... but won't.... How do you resist when they make contact with you? How is it he can't see how compatible and natural we are together..? He was one that didn't like to be alone and now for the first time he relishes his freedom.... Is this a stage? Midlife thing? I am so hurting and confused.... What a fool I am....

[Night is Long]

Unfortunately he is enjoying being a bachelor. He's on a dating site which means he is in contact with many single women. His plate is full. He used you for sex because you made yourself available. He knows that you will make yourself available whenever he wants you. You're too easy. There is no challenge there.