One month on... still feeling like crap.

[Krying]

I've been having a hard time lately. I really hate this time of year. Thanksgiving, Halloween, my birthday, Christmas. It's a time of year, one is reminded just how much of a loser I am and am feeling so alone.

 

I've met a few people in a new work situation I have been in. Had a few nice conversations with some girls etc. But it all ends up in me desperately longing for and thinking of my ex. The worry here is this is going to last for a long time. I've gone through it before and I know from experience that regardless of how long a relationship lasted, if I got to the point where I fell hard for a girl, it took me months, even years to get over them.

 

I read this morning that nice old goodie, that love finds a person when they least suspect it. When you're entire being, every atom in your body is longing for and still madly in love with a person who left you, I found myself in a situation where I don't have a clue what to do. I'm always going to be wanting a relationship, so how will it find me, if at every turn I can think of nothing else.

 

I got no closure in any sense on why the relationship ended. One minute it was great, the next she just vanished. My attempts to contact her have been futile. I'm now stuck wondering why why why, and always hoping that she will contact me in time.

 

I hope today and this year ends as soon as possible. I am so depressed and sad right now, I honestly am thinking of going and doing something stupid.

[bigheartkindsoul]

You will get there, it take alot of grieving (which is an important step), time, doing things to get yourself up and running again and over the depression.

 

Why did this happen - well you will not do yourself any favours wondering forever, just think well clearly I am better off without this selfish person.

 

It's hard, I have been there and also was recovering from depression. But now 4months on and I am happy again and dating but it was a bumpy road.

 

I would also advise to keep busy and get some new interestes, keeping busy means you do not always have time to sit and dwell and over think things. Keeping busy you will also see in time it is possible to have fun and feel good again.

 

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