Steffie575 Posted October 30, 2007 Posted October 30, 2007 OK...i know some of you guys know my story...six year long distance relationship, broke up with me and already has someone else, ignores me completely. I had been doing awesome...hadnt attempted to call or text for oh...ten days? Which is great for me. So yesterday...I guess I broke the NC and now im pissed. Here's what happened.....this is going to sound so juvenile but just bear with me you guys... On my Myspace I have a map thing where it records the state of every person who visits my page. My ex hadnt been online since October 20th, so obviously he hasnt been to my page. But yesterday I sign on and look at the map, and there was a marker on California, where my ex lives! I looked him up and saw that he was online at that very moment. He went to my page! I felt so great because this had to mean that he was thinking about me and maybe missing me. It also must have meant that the ten days of NC was working out in my favor. Because he had been online before Oct. 20th and that was around the time when I was still being desperate and calling him all the time...and he never went to my page then. So I felt good. But then I texted him. The text said, "I know we see each other online right now, and I know you looked at my page." I thought that maybe he'd read that and call me. A few minutes after sending i I regretted it SOOOO much. Here he was, missing me or thinking about me, probably because I was having NC and successfully making it seem like I was moving on without him and I was fine, and I go and send a message!!! No Im back at square one right? He didnt call me after I sent it, and now he probably is thinking, "Wow, she still is desperate for me..." And we all know that the way to attract someone back is to have a life! Why did I ruin it......ugh. Sorry if this didnt make an ounce of sense....I needed to vent. ;(
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