bigheartkindsoul Posted October 29, 2007 Posted October 29, 2007 I actually want to thank you for breaking up with me, once again I am the great person I was before you came along, and messed with my head. Although yes it did hurt at the time, I am now past this, and life is happy again as am I. And am grateful that you did leave me. I know I am much better without the worry that "us" bought and someone else will love and cherish my heart, my honesty and all the good qualities that you once loved but trampled over because of your lies. I hope you do some soul searching and learning as I have, and find out the reasons why you act like you did when there was no need. And hopefully you can make a LT relationship work rather than running at the first sign of trouble. I cannot do this for you, you need to do it for yourself. I have done what I needed too, learnt what I have needed too and grown how I have needed too and will continue to do so and this is all that is important to me now. Once again I thank you and wish you all the best in the future. Regards D Ok, that might sound cold, it is not meant to be, nor will it be sent just me hopefully putting a final lid on what has been a long journey what with the 3.5 months of break up and 5months of hell since his lies within the relationship began. I wish him well and now will be thinking of me, my future and my life only. Closure. (living proof that break up closure is possible)
Sanslatete Posted October 30, 2007 Posted October 30, 2007 I'm happy for your closure bhks, it must feel so liberating? I hope to get there myself some day....soon I hope, but I'm still 'dealing and healing'. I'm not at the stage where I can forgive and forget either, she did some really ****t% things towards the end and I want her to get her come uppance, there was no need and it destroyed me. i'm still a 'dead man walking' to this day. Good luck in your continued recovery, I hope you find a kind heart that will look after yours.
Lee725 Posted October 30, 2007 Posted October 30, 2007 Well said......... I too hope to feel that way someday. I am getting closer, closer, closer reaching .... arrrggg just out of reach! Thank you for writing that, it gives the rest of us a little hope to be where you are at.
Author bigheartkindsoul Posted October 30, 2007 Author Posted October 30, 2007 Yeah it comes in time, its only been the last few days I have just not felt anything for him. I think also I got total acceptance it was over and for the best along time ago but just needed time to get over the hurt and pain, also the depression too. Since the depression has gone, life seems so much better and was able to re adjust my thoughts to a happy place rather than thinking about us/him. I just don't care anymore. Even though yes I still have the odd thought but it goes out as quickly as it enters now instead of thinking about it for hours on end or until something distracted me.
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