kittensmittens Posted October 27, 2007 Posted October 27, 2007 ....but does anyone know of a free psychic or clairvoyant or whatever? Has anyone gone to one and gotten anything accurate? I know, I know....I just am really wanting my ex to come back and I'm just curious about what one of these people might say. I'm not even sure if I believe any of it or not....I think I'm just desperate for answers. We broke up almost 3 months ago and, while I do feel like I'm in a somewhat different place mentally, I still miss him like f'ing hell, I think about him all the time, and I pray constantly for him to come back (and I'm not religious). I feel like I have moved on a little bit already, and I've been fighting it all the way. Time just sort of brought me to this akward place without my aproval or input...and it scares me. I wonder...where is HE? What is he thinking or feeling? If time is moving ME forward, what the hell must it be doing for him?? Am I just a face with a name to him now? Or.....is he missing me too? Honestly, the only thing that actually LIFTS my spirits when I wake up and face yet another day without him is thinking "maybe he'll call today"...."maybe I'll get that email I'm hoping for". These thought actually make me feel happy and lighter. Then when I crawl into my empty bed at night after another long day without his call, I tell myself "he's probably waiting to call on my birthday...surely he won't forget me then". He probably won't call, but it's the only thing that keeps me sane. After my birthday, which is about a month away, I won't have any marker to look forward to. Ok, I sort of veered off on a tangent, but I really miss him and as silly as it might be, I just am wondering if anyone else here has tried a psychic/what results you got and who you went to (I'm poor, so I can't afford much, if anything at all). And also, when I said I'm in a different place mentally, I really am. I still miss him, but I feel a little more open to being happy without him, to giving other guys a chance at the very least, and I don't feel like death and devastation all the time anymore...
funkybassplayer Posted October 27, 2007 Posted October 27, 2007 try to keep moving forward, if your starting to move on, keep going, and dont look back. If it is to be, it will happen. and the worst thing is to try and think what hes thinking. Like you he needs time to move on, and maybe 1 day you will get a call to be friends, but for now, you have to keep moving forward, and feeling what you have to. If your happyness depends on him calling you, then you have to really think about your own state of mind, and what you want for you. Looking for answers in the spirit world is pretty desparate, but sending out love to him through the airways will make you feel much better, rather than sending out very needy vibes!
Author kittensmittens Posted October 27, 2007 Author Posted October 27, 2007 Thanks Funky, The thing is though, I don't want to just be friends with him someday. It makes me sad to think that we may run into each other someday and that would be it, or he might be someone I talk to in email occasionally. I want him to come back. I feel like no one is PERFECT for you and in so many ways, he was pretty damn near close to it. There were so many things that made him perfectly suited to me that are sooo hard to come by in another guy. And I still love him. I do miss him as a friend, of course, and I have really been fighting the urge lately to call him up just to say hello. I just miss talking to him. It's been about 2 1/2 months without his voice. He was my best friend and I still feel like he has understood me better than anyone in my life right now. He got my weird sense of humor, my sensitivity, etc. I do send him love every chance I can, I'm not even religious and I pray that he somehow feels how much I love him. Even after all the crappy things he did in the end, I still can't bing myself to be vengeful or spiteful. Everyone seems to concur that I should be at this point, he deserves it, etc.....but I just can't. I really do love him and as cheesy as it sounds, it hurts me to hurt him. I dunno....I just want him to come back and whether psychics are real or not, I feel like I could rest easier if someone told me "he'll be back". Or if they say he's not, maybe it'll kick start the rest of my grieving/letting go process.
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