marlena Posted October 26, 2007 Posted October 26, 2007 Here's the text she sent me: Roses are red Violet are blue Just an ol' verse to say I miss talking to you. My answer: Roses are red Violets are blue wanna kiss and make up and be how we were? Still, I couldn't call her and chat like we used to. What is holding me back? I do want to go back to "the way we were" but something I can't control is stopping me. I see her in a whole different light. And something inside of me has broken. I keep putting off seeing her or even talking to her. She has made so many steps to make ammends. I don't want her to feel badly yet I just can't pick up that damn phone. I guess I'll have to fake feeling the same way until I actually do!
Yosef Posted October 26, 2007 Posted October 26, 2007 The first text from your girl was SO nice. I'm jealous I couldn't think of something like that! Yours on the other hand didn't rhyme. Only YOU can find out what's holding you back. Are you nervous? Shy? Or is it just a strange, vague feeling? Maybe you lack confidence in yourself. You want to get back together with her, don't you? Do you REALLY want to be back with her, or is it a "sounds like a good idea", because if its the second one, you shouldn't try until you know for sure you really want to get back together.
Author marlena Posted October 27, 2007 Author Posted October 27, 2007 Yosef, I'm a woman and I am talking about my best girlfriend of 25 long years. I guess you don't know my story but thanks anyway!
Yosef Posted October 27, 2007 Posted October 27, 2007 Yosef, I'm a woman and I am talking about my best girlfriend of 25 long years. I guess you don't know my story but thanks anyway! Ouch. I'm so sorry. I just made a total idiot of myself, didn't I? I'll be going now...
Author marlena Posted October 27, 2007 Author Posted October 27, 2007 It's Ok! It's happened to me too! Not to worry!
Kasan Posted October 27, 2007 Posted October 27, 2007 Marlena, I don't know the details of the estrangement with your friend--and I didn't have the time to look through your postings, but I am guessing that whatever she did was pretty bad knowing the kind of person that you are. But, you I am sure, know, that "good" friends are so very hard to find. I had a friend that was eleven years older than I--and for some strange reason we hit it off. I told her things that I never told anyone else and she did the same. We were neighbors for sixteen years. There were times that she ticked me off so much that I would avoid her for a couple of days until I cooled down. We talked everyday....about what.... I can't tell you. Five years ago, I talked to her one Thursday night...all the usual stuff...came home from work Friday night and received a phone call from her husband....she had died suddenly Friday morning of a heart attack. I can't even tell you how much I miss her. So many times in the past five years I have reached for the phone to call her and tell her the news...but she is not there. I know that I will never have a friendship like that again, and I am old enough to know just how special our friendship was. Marlena--I would give anything to be able to talk to her again, to talk about nothing with her, and have that connection with someone who knew me "back then".
Author marlena Posted October 27, 2007 Author Posted October 27, 2007 Oh, my God Kasan, Tears just sprung from my eyes. I am so, so sorry. You are right. I am getting on that phone right away. This is the shove I needed. Once again, you've been so helpful. You would be a good friend to have, I know! Thanks.
Author marlena Posted October 27, 2007 Author Posted October 27, 2007 OK done! We made small talk and avoided "touchy" topics. I'm glad I did it although it did not at all feel the same! That the thing with trust. Once broken it can never be regained. Maybe in time (when I get Alzeihemer's )! Whew!!!!!!!!!
Kasan Posted October 28, 2007 Posted October 28, 2007 OK done! We made small talk and avoided "touchy" topics. I'm glad I did it although it did not at all feel the same! That the thing with trust. Once broken it can never be regained. Maybe in time (when I get Alzeihemer's )! Whew!!!!!!!!! I am so happy for you!!! It will get easier you know...and sometimes the same is not always better. Maybe you can take what happened and forge a stronger friendship.
Author marlena Posted October 28, 2007 Author Posted October 28, 2007 Maybe you can take what happened and forge a stronger friendship. Maybe things will turn out for the better but right now re - establishing trust is hard. I need to feel that same blind trust again. Thanks for giving me a little shove in the right direction. Hugs to you!!
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