sakeeta Posted October 20, 2007 Posted October 20, 2007 I know there is more than just me out there who's hearts and lives are shattered by the loss of the one we love. I thought sure I had the love of my life, we had started a home together and what I thought was the beginning of a wonderful life together after 2 previous tries that had failed. I really thought that my world had really fallen into place, and that finally for the first time ever life was going to finally be good. Well, though the situation was different, I basically lost out for the same reasons as before. It is the weirdest thing in the world and would take a novel to explain..but basically after 2 years and 3 tries..the last one I moved back from 365 miles away for after he contacted me, I lost again. Are you ready for the reason? His ex wife and his ex in laws..who by the way don't give a rats a** about him. They have lied to him and threatened him and turned their back on him, and he will give up what is universally considered to be the best thing that has ever happened to him to be on these peoples side. I can't even compete with that. Three times I have tried, and this last time I thought I had won, but when push came to shove they won again and I got left in the cold and made to look like the bad person again. I guess I shouldn't have been surprised. So I left. I told him if it ever happened again I was done, and I meant it. Where is he now? With them, of course. But I know what I tried to do, and I know I gave it my all, and yes my heart is broken to pieces. I have never loved a man like that before and I know there is a good chance I might never again. But I know I gave it every bit of attention it deserved, and I am proud of that. If you have loved with all your heart and soul, and it still failed, hold your head up high. The problem was not yours, and it is their loss. You and I deserve better, and we know it. A friend of mine told me she felt sorry for my man, because she didn't think he would ever find what he had again. Another told me she hoped that he did someday realize what he lost, but that it would be too late and I was off on my adventure. That is what I have decided to do. I have wanted 2 things in my life..love and adventure. It seems that love is elusive for me, so I am going to focus on adventure. Always before there has been something holding me back..but there is not one single thing now. So I am going to chase a dream and forget about the rest. So fellow broken hearts..follow a long forgotten dream and be proud of yourself for loving like you did..it's a rare and wonderful thing whether the one's we chose to love knew what they had or not!
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