isntitironic Posted October 16, 2007 Posted October 16, 2007 I've known this girl for years. We always caught each others eye. She used to date a guy I know so we always stayed away from each other. Two years later we caved and things were great. I'm mean really good. Then things got complicated...thanx to me of course. I got drunk (real smart) starting asking her about other guys blah blah. I prodded and pressured her because I felt that I had a friendship on the line and needed to know where things were going right away. She saw this as me pressing the fast forward button and was spooked. She said I was acting like a girl. First time I ever heard that one. The guy she used to date was abusive and a piece of crap. I don't know why I let him influence me. I guess I just didn't want to start trouble. Anyways we hung out for a few more weeks after that but I was frustrated because she was distant and I couldn't snap my fingers to make things better. She started to warm up to me again. One day she asked me if I drove by her house. Her ex used to do psycho **** like that and I thought she was insinuating something. I yelled at her saying I was offended blah blah. She was only asking if I was in the neighborhood. I apologized for my reaction. God love her she said I was acting like a girl again. LOL Finaly she told me she has to go with her gut and I'm showing signs of her exes controlling behavior. Her ex does cocaine and she thinks that because I reacted the way I did and hang out with the same people he does I probably put something in my body. Guilt by association. Then she didn't return my calls for a couple days and she said I was being needy. When she was really into me she would call me constantly but no need to get into that. I just feel like its funny that its ok for her to do certain things and not me. Anyways swooped right into No Contact. Told her in a text I wish her the best and I'll see her down the road. She was like what? maybe she didn't expect that. Then a buddy of mine said maybe I should text her after a couple weeks as we don't have a long history. I did I said hello to her with a inside joke and she immediately responded with a pet name she used to call me. not bad right? Now another couple weeks later I instant message her. This was yesterday. It went something like this Me: Yoo hoo Her: Hi Me: How are you? Her: Good and u? Me: Good, Good Me: So I thought I'd give you a call this week see what the latest and greatest is. Her: I don't have a latest and greatest.... Me:ok at this point i thought i was rejected 3minutes later Her: what have u been up to? Me: A ton of work Her: Oh I'll bet Me: Did you go to the game Monday night? Her: No I didn't Me: It was fun but traffic was insane Her: Yeah my boss went said he didn't get home till 3am At that point I stopped responding and went to the gym. I'm thinking about sending her this letter: [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman] I just realized I haven’t seen you in a month. Today I laughed because we’ve had some fun together. Cheesy talks don’t help. So I’ll make this short. My intentions were good yet I prodded and pressured. When I couldn’t make things perfect at the snap of a finger I lost patience and my head. I was selfish and tried to make you feel wrong for feeling the way you did. I’ve had a change of heart these past weeks…or maybe a return too. Maybe I was partly influenced by some shady people. But they led me to you and I’m thankful for that. I thought time could heal our friendship. I guess we’ll see. I really liked having you around. One of two things is happening here. Either I’m crazy to be sending you this or I’d be crazy not too. I miss you. See ya, [/FONT][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman]What do you think? [/FONT][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][/sIZE]
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