sanyy Posted October 15, 2007 Posted October 15, 2007 Hi there.. have been posting on this site on my problem and to tell u its gr8 help always. To just recap, I wasinvolved with this MM and I am too married. My husband n me we dont love each other. No sex at all frm past three years. But due to some family prbs we stay together. I fell in love with MM 2 years back and we had EA for 9 months. He broke up then saying it was tough for him to handle as it was going emotional, no physical though. He went NC and he really maintained to highest degree. loved him crazily. I cldnt take the pain, I brike the NC many times and sent him texts, mails, offline IMs.. but he never replied. I wished him on his b'day over text, he replied only thank you. But just a week later my b'day was there n he dint wish me. This made me go crazy.. I was so upset, I was just asking GOD to give me some strength to deal with this break up... as its clear now, he has moved on. I too wanted to move on. I know I love him like anything , but just keep on thinking abt past moments and wishing him to come back was becoming to much to handle.. And just 5 days back I landed up doing this crap.. am having sex chat ( or just normal chat also) with this stranger with changing my identity.. we talk a lot.. sometime the whole night.. and slowly I am thinking abt this new guy more than my MM. I knw its selfish to play with this chat frnd like this.. but it is helping me in coming out of the break up wound. I still gt tears in my eyes when I thought os my MM. And then finally thought of asking u all abt this.. Am I taking a wrong method of healing.. Actually I have tried everything, taking some hobby to exercise to taking care of me physically and every possible things mentioned in many coping techniques.. but nothing helped.. I was never able to take my MM for even a while and then finally used to land up bugging him up with my text or mails.. But this new technique of chatting with stranger with some unknown identity of mine is working.. I am slowly started to think less of him.. Is this wrong.. Please help.
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