DazUK Posted October 10, 2007 Posted October 10, 2007 I was with a guy for a year and it was the first time I had been in a serious relationship, I am a 22 year old gay guy. It was a very rocky relationship and he treated me fairly badly but I genuinely loved him with all my heart, tried to stand by him through everything. The relationship broke down and we split but then we gave things another go and things went really well and then he went on a holiday (in august), he had booked during the split. On the holiday he met someone else and he told me about it and said he didnt think he wanted to be with me anymore. I coped pretty well and got on with things but then a few weeks ago I bumped into him when I was out and he asked me back, said he shouldnt have done what he did on holiday and that it didnt work out with the holiday guy, but I said No. A couple of days later I changed my mind and when I said lets sort things out, he didnt want to know. I found out a fornight later he had slept with a previous ex of mine a few days before the night he asked me back which I didnt like and I text him being very angry and probably quite abusive. Today I have felt bad and I ended up texting him again and asking him to meet me etc. and he has said he doesnt want to see me again, he has found a new boyfriend, who looks really quite nice and he is from the sound of it quite happy and doesnt really want me to hassel him. In all the only thing I have achieved is to have completely lost my dignity. I know after so long (this all started in August) I should be over it but I can't I wake up in the mornings cursing that I even woke up. I can't stop crying and it has all gotten too much, I feel like I have gone back to square one and just wanna stay off work and mope. I duno why Im writing on this site, hoping maybe for a bit of support or share some stories to help each other feel better, I dunno. It feels so bad because Ive been through the devestating stage with him before and now a few weeks later its happened again. Its much different being gay aswell, I'm a normal stable gay guy, so many gay guys are promiscuous and dont work and wanna party all the time and he seemed a bit different and I feel like Im gona be alone forever and that its my fault I have lost out on this because I said No that night I saw him out and because I text him nasty messages cuz he went with my ex.
sb129 Posted October 10, 2007 Posted October 10, 2007 Daz, I think you know that this guy is bad news. It doesn't make it hurt any less, but anyone that continuously treats you badly and then sleeps with another ex is not worthy of you. You won't be alone forever! 22 isn't that old you know, you have loads more time left to find another BF, you might even have several before you meet someone who is right for you. Try not to contact your ex, because nothing good will come of it. Delete his phone number, email address, everything. And you need to keep busy! Even if it feels like the hardest thing in the world- get up, get out of bed, go to the gym, surround yourself with good friends or family. You WILL get through this, and it does get better, even though it takes time. Look after yourself, and stay strong, you are doing the right thing by not being with this man, he is wrong for you.
lexi29 Posted October 10, 2007 Posted October 10, 2007 I know how you feel. Just went thru something similiar. all I can say is you are better off with out him (know that is not a comfort right now) and that one day you will find someone who will treat you a hundred times better. Just try to think of everything that you disliked about him. Make a list, write him a letter. dont dwell on the good times you had with him. It just makes it harder.
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