carolinaboy Posted October 9, 2007 Posted October 9, 2007 As it goes, my ex that dumped me has been calling the past two months since we broke up. She came by my work the other night and it was really hard. It's strange to me though, I run after her to hug her (I dont know exactly what the hug was supposed to symbolize, just felt like doing it). We hug and she cries and asks me to stop. I didnt cry. I dont even know why I ran after her. I've been messed up about this. I dont get it if she can dump me, call me nonstop and act casual and come by my work why she cried so much. I mean, I get it, but it's the only sign of care I've seen from her since she dumped me. It kills me too cos its not even words. Just tears. She didnt say anything about the past. It's not healthy to dwell on. Breakups just put all the dramatic memories on a reel in your mind. Lookin forward to the day when I am whole again.
Sanslatete Posted October 9, 2007 Posted October 9, 2007 I've had the tears and I guessed it was guilt. I don't think she was crying for me or the mess she'd left me in, just guilt at having to see it.
Author carolinaboy Posted October 9, 2007 Author Posted October 9, 2007 cos i want to live and learn and figure stuff out. this site itself is therapy, but Im wondering if anyone went on antidepressants and felt better or if talking to a psychologist made things ok. Or is that too much? I went to one once and had a mixed feeling. I've really been unable to focus since this breakup and am admittedly weak, physically from being unhealthy and mentally cos my confidence and attitude towards dating is skewed. I dont like pills, but if anyone has opinions, im open.
someone3434 Posted October 9, 2007 Posted October 9, 2007 I've had the tears and I guessed it was guilt. I don't think she was crying for me or the mess she'd left me in, just guilt at having to see it. I would have to agree.
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