Sanslatete Posted October 8, 2007 Posted October 8, 2007 How long before the one you cherished so much, would have died for, becomes the bane of your life? I adored my ex-GF for 6 1/2 years, would have done anything for her and never as much as looked at another woman all the time we were together. I'm getting to the point now (after 3 months) where I'm resenting her for what she did, I guess her pedastal is crumbling. I'm starting to REALLY think about the liberties she took with me, the hurt she caused me and the irrevecable damage she's undoubtedly done to my ability to get really close to someone else. I can picture the times I was in a blind panic, worrying about her, phoning her and not getting any answer, and all the time she was gallavanting with the idiot she went off with. I met him a couple of times and he was nice as you like to me, in a snakey-sort-of-way, but thinking back I can see he was patronising me. They both knew what they were doing behind my back and it just gets my bile up to think about it now. The last time I saw/spoke to her, she was in floods of tears. I felt sorry at the time for her, but now I realise it was guilt. She saw the condition I was in (I lost a lot of weight) and felt a bit responsible I suppose and the tiny concience that she has must have been twinged. I loved her with all I had and she knew it, told me she could see it, but she still killed me, or may as well have. I'm a dead man walking and my life is in tatters and all because I loved with all my heart. I thought she was special, but she was just acting. I hate to say it but she deserves to suffer for this and I hope one day she goes through what I have, and more. This pain has robbed me of emotion and motivation among other things and she should be ashamed of herself.
norajane Posted October 8, 2007 Posted October 8, 2007 That's natural at this stage. Eventually, you will move on to indifference, where you will feel neither anger, nor pain, nor resentment, nor love, nor anything - she just won't matter. I know it doesn't seem possible, but it really will happen. Time is an amazing thing. In my last break-up (which was very painful for me for reasons different from yours but painful nevertheless), I knew I was making my way toward indifference one night when I went to bed fuming that both my cable and internet had been out for a whole day...instead of running through the ex-bf issues in my head like I always did. I started laughing when I realized my mind had re-prioritized him and all the anger, pain, resentments, sadness, etc. - Comcast had replaced him at the top of my hit list!
someone3434 Posted October 8, 2007 Posted October 8, 2007 It's natural and it should happen. I don't know you, only know your posts from the last few days but from what I have read..you shouldn't feel sorry for being pissed or losing that love. Did you ever do anything other than want to be with that person, love her the way no one has ever loved her before, never take advantage of her love, treat her like no one has ever treated her before? If you didn't then you have nothing to be ashamed of and nothing to be sorry for.
lonelybird Posted October 8, 2007 Posted October 8, 2007 sorry for what you are going through, you will fall in love again, and trust someone again love turned to hate, it happens. Think about that, can you know a person who won't fail us from time to time? I don't know such a person, even me fail myself sometimes
Author Sanslatete Posted October 9, 2007 Author Posted October 9, 2007 I know I can forgive and forget, but there are some things that just stick in your throat and says this person doesn't give a **** for me, and that's hard to bear, especially when they loved you for years.
Chrome Barracuda Posted October 9, 2007 Posted October 9, 2007 How long before the one you cherished so much, would have died for, becomes the bane of your life? I adored my ex-GF for 6 1/2 years, would have done anything for her and never as much as looked at another woman all the time we were together. I'm getting to the point now (after 3 months) where I'm resenting her for what she did, I guess her pedastal is crumbling. I'm starting to REALLY think about the liberties she took with me, the hurt she caused me and the irrevecable damage she's undoubtedly done to my ability to get really close to someone else. I can picture the times I was in a blind panic, worrying about her, phoning her and not getting any answer, and all the time she was gallavanting with the idiot she went off with. I met him a couple of times and he was nice as you like to me, in a snakey-sort-of-way, but thinking back I can see he was patronising me. They both knew what they were doing behind my back and it just gets my bile up to think about it now. The last time I saw/spoke to her, she was in floods of tears. I felt sorry at the time for her, but now I realise it was guilt. She saw the condition I was in (I lost a lot of weight) and felt a bit responsible I suppose and the tiny concience that she has must have been twinged. I loved her with all I had and she knew it, told me she could see it, but she still killed me, or may as well have. I'm a dead man walking and my life is in tatters and all because I loved with all my heart. I thought she was special, but she was just acting. I hate to say it but she deserves to suffer for this and I hope one day she goes through what I have, and more. This pain has robbed me of emotion and motivation among other things and she should be ashamed of herself. At the end of the day she'll know what she did, and when the relationship with him starts crumbling down dont be surprised if she shows her ugly ass face! All people do that, in some form or another. Remember what doesnt kill you makes you stronger! Your still alive take this time to rebuild yourself.
hot123 Posted October 9, 2007 Posted October 9, 2007 How long before the one you cherished so much, would have died for, becomes the bane of your life? I adored my ex-GF for 6 1/2 years, would have done anything for her and never as much as looked at another woman all the time we were together. I'm getting to the point now (after 3 months) where I'm resenting her for what she did, I guess her pedastal is crumbling. I'm starting to REALLY think about the liberties she took with me, the hurt she caused me and the irrevecable damage she's undoubtedly done to my ability to get really close to someone else. I can picture the times I was in a blind panic, worrying about her, phoning her and not getting any answer, and all the time she was gallavanting with the idiot she went off with. I met him a couple of times and he was nice as you like to me, in a snakey-sort-of-way, but thinking back I can see he was patronising me. They both knew what they were doing behind my back and it just gets my bile up to think about it now. The last time I saw/spoke to her, she was in floods of tears. I felt sorry at the time for her, but now I realise it was guilt. She saw the condition I was in (I lost a lot of weight) and felt a bit responsible I suppose and the tiny concience that she has must have been twinged. I loved her with all I had and she knew it, told me she could see it, but she still killed me, or may as well have. I'm a dead man walking and my life is in tatters and all because I loved with all my heart. I thought she was special, but she was just acting. I hate to say it but she deserves to suffer for this and I hope one day she goes through what I have, and more. This pain has robbed me of emotion and motivation among other things and she should be ashamed of herself.I was in the same spot awhile ago...the thing that pissed me off the most was by the time he hurt like i did i was too far beyond his sorry ass to enjoy it!youll be there too eventually.
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