Phateless Posted October 9, 2007 Posted October 9, 2007 Don't get too comfortable too soon. Keep your options open. To be truthful, I'm not entirely sure that I trust B. If A wants something more you'll probably know.
uniqueone Posted October 9, 2007 Posted October 9, 2007 I think I ruined their friendship. On Thursday, B told A, in confidence, that he liked me. Later that night, in confidence, A relayed the message to me. On Friday, B told me, in confidence, that A was a playing me. On Sunday, in confidence, I told A what B said. On Monday, A confronted B about it and proceeded to "cut him out". I don't know who the worst person is amongst the three of us is, since none of us are apparently capable of keeping our mouths shut, but I think it's between me and A's "friend". It was crappy of him to have trash-talked A like that... but on the other hand, it was crappy of me to have gone along with everything when I had the least to lose. At least B hoped to gain something... I was just there for the pool, the video games, and the drama. Anyway, that's that. Just an update. Sounds like you're all basically after your own interests and no one elses. None of you can trust each other since no confidences are kept. So what do you have then? Not really much of anything no matter which way you look at it, I'm afraid.
Replicant Posted October 10, 2007 Posted October 10, 2007 I think I ruined their friendship. On Thursday, B told A, in confidence, that he liked me. Later that night, in confidence, A relayed the message to me. On Friday, B told me, in confidence, that A was a playing me. On Sunday, in confidence, I told A what B said. On Monday, A confronted B about it and proceeded to "cut him out". I don't know who the worst person is amongst the three of us is, since none of us are apparently capable of keeping our mouths shut, but I think it's between me and A's "friend". It was crappy of him to have trash-talked A like that... but on the other hand, it was crappy of me to have gone along with everything when I had the least to lose. At least B hoped to gain something... I was just there for the pool, the video games, and the drama. Anyway, that's that. Just an update. The worst person of the three is you. Why? you're enjoying the drama of ruining a friendship like a good lil'sociopath. You are devoid of any care of what goes on here, playing the middle man or devil's advocate making things worse between them in the process. You state that it was a bad thing to do? but come on who are you trying to fool. If anyone *Normal* is in a relationship, drunken sleepovers in other guys beds and the like don't happen without serious issues coming from it let alone pitting friend against friend over the same girl. Now to go on to say you have the least to lose...well you selfishly right there, but if A&B were smart they'd give you a tandem boot right to the gutter.
Author spookie Posted October 10, 2007 Author Posted October 10, 2007 Now to go on to say you have the least to lose...well you selfishly right there, but if A&B were smart they'd give you a tandem boot right to the gutter. Yup. I totally agree. I'm so screwed up it's not even funny. I constantly wonder why anyone would want to be with me - I am insecure, distrustful, vengeful, black-humored, and selfish. I wouldn't go so far as to say sadistic, but oftentimes my actions border on that. You know Lizzie, off these forums? I'm a crazier version. 35 years younger. Today I had a full-blown emotional breakdown in front of A. I picked him up from school (an hour late because I was smoking out with a friend) and we drove to my house. He had an hour before he had to leave, so we sat in the car. Why? Becuase I don't let him go into my room when he comes over, since I don't want him toughing things. Like my computer. Or my papers. And because right before I met A, I was sleeping with my roommate, and that makes A uncomfortable. So we were sitting in the car, and I started bawling - thinking about my ex. About how odd it was that even though I didn't really miss him, I was constantly aware of him just because over three years there is so much of him that I've incorporated into myself. The way I think about a lot of things, what's important to me. Stuff like that. I really learned so much from him, and I got to know him so well that now, I know always know exaclty what he woudl say about everything. And what he would think. And feel. It's like I've got him with me all the time. All the parts I liked best, in me. I was telling A this and crying, and THEN, with the sun shining into the car all lazy because it was sunset, and the windows rolled down and the music on, I realized just how much I was falling for HIM. I actually feel a squeeze in my chest when I look at him. It makes me so afriad. So through my tears, I demanded to know if he liked me. He laughed. I jumped out of the car, slammed my door, and yelled, "*******!" He followed. Bewildered. Apparently he just thought my question was cute. That's why he'd laughed. What a catch I am.
squeak Posted October 10, 2007 Posted October 10, 2007 Interesting, because A+B sacrificed their friendship over her, she has now created a sort of emotional investment in each of them to have her since it is a competitive showdown, they have invested in sacrifice--the 2 guys are both totally prone to this kind of showdown, apparently, so let the best man win. If they weren't, neither would have engaged in this back and forth with too many people involved. I don't feel sorry for the 2 guys pitted against eachother, they could have taken different courses of action.
Author spookie Posted October 10, 2007 Author Posted October 10, 2007 Interesting, because A+B sacrificed their friendship over her, she has now created a sort of emotional investment in each of them to have her since it is a competitive showdown, they have invested in sacrifice--the 2 guys are both totally prone to this kind of showdown, apparently, so let the best man win. If they weren't, neither would have engaged in this back and forth with too many people involved. I guess the 2 guys are into turmoil and pain. I don't feel sorry for them. Nor should anyone. There's nothing to win. That's the irony. Whoever gets out faster is the one who'll lose the least. But it's not like I'm lying to anyone about who I am. I mean, that party where I met them both for the first time... I had a very obvious home-made bandage around my arm. Where you'd shoot heroin. Covered in blood. And I wouldn't tell anyone what it was. If they weren't in for a trainwreck, they should have bolted back there.
norajane Posted October 10, 2007 Posted October 10, 2007 There's nothing to win. That's the irony. Whoever gets out faster is the one who'll lose the least. But it's not like I'm lying to anyone about who I am. I mean, that party where I met them both for the first time... I had a very obvious home-made bandage around my arm. Where you'd shoot heroin. Covered in blood. And I wouldn't tell anyone what it was. If they weren't in for a trainwreck, they should have bolted back there. Is that what you're doing? Go to one of the school counselors and ask for some help before you self-destruct. Your ex-bf isn't worth the hell you're in, and the kind of hell you're setting yourself up for!
Replicant Posted October 10, 2007 Posted October 10, 2007 There's nothing to win. That's the irony. Whoever gets out faster is the one who'll lose the least. But it's not like I'm lying to anyone about who I am. I mean, that party where I met them both for the first time... I had a very obvious home-made bandage around my arm. Where you'd shoot heroin. Covered in blood. And I wouldn't tell anyone what it was. If they weren't in for a trainwreck, they should have bolted back there. Like i said before in another thread you paint yourself with such a heavy conviction at such a young age. It's tragic really, because it's stupid and i think you know it is. It's like you want to attain something like a great relationship etc.. yet you prevent the means of achieving it because you are well on your way to being a great sociopath and could care less in any given situation how it turns out. You play like a cat with a mouse...When the mouse dies you carry on as usual...it was fun at the moment it happened. It's clear you are self destructive, be it heroin or cutting your own arm up. Forget the relationships for now and get yourself some help seriously. Dating losers like A&B or the rest of the alphabet like them is just going to take you to the next level of whom you are now. That's what you want??
Author spookie Posted October 10, 2007 Author Posted October 10, 2007 Like i said before in another thread you paint yourself with such a heavy conviction at such a young age. It's tragic really, because it's stupid and i think you know it is. It's like you want to attain something like a great relationship etc.. yet you prevent the means of achieving it because you are well on your way to being a great sociopath and could care less in any given situation how it turns out. You play like a cat with a mouse...When the mouse dies you carry on as usual...it was fun at the moment it happened. It's clear you are self destructive, be it heroin or cutting your own arm up. Forget the relationships for now and get yourself some help seriously. Dating losers like A&B or the rest of the alphabet like them is just going to take you to the next level of whom you are now. That's what you want?? It wasn't heroin actually, I had sold my plasma for cash that day and ripped off the original bandage to go to the party only to have blood projectile-squirt all over my wall, so I wrapped a rubber band around my arm and stopped the wound with some toilet paper. But there's never a right answer where intravenous injections are involved... the plasma story would have begged the question "why are you so broke you had to do that", for which I have no good answer. My point is, I was acting like a total psycho that day, and the assumption they should have made was that I was on heroin. If they weren't looking to self-destruct with me they shouldn't have both proceeded to attempt to get to know me after that.
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