qwertyu Posted October 4, 2007 Posted October 4, 2007 im so confused! ive broken up w my ex for abt 2 weeks now. have not contacted him for 4 days & going quite well actually cos i didnt feel THAT tortured altho i still think of him & stuff. we're supposed to meet this sat & we're still mtg. i planned a surprise (i dont know why im doing it either) its actually smth he did for me when he started dating me & im doing it back cos i kinda wna trigger his memories of us a little? and tell him what ive realised in the past 2 weeks, basically what i felt abt the break up (since i havent said my piece) also because i thought we might nvr get to meet aft this & i might really not contact him forever spoke to him on e phone just now for a very short while & it went pretty alright. we were laughing & talking like PURE friends which i felt was ok at that time but looking back, seems a lil strange to me. i dont know if i shld still carry out my "surprise" on sat cos im afraid it'd ruin our friendship? thing is, i dont even know how we can continue being friends. i dont think it'd be easy right? esp since i still have feelings for him but i wanted to do it cos i thought it would be a "last" gift & a sweet memory to leave him with in case we wld never meet/speak again. but when i was on the phone w him just now, he told me we can only meet for dinner this sat & i was like "oh thats it?" haha. and he said we can always meet on other weekends (dont know how often) but i was thinking, obviously i wouldnt mind meeting him still! so shld i still carry on with the surprise? or will it scare him & not want to meet me forever? but i dont expect anything frm the surprise. in the sense that i guess i'd still ask him to think about us if he ever feels ready & let me know, or else i dont mind just being friends with him for now (cos i think we both need a break). i just want him to know how i feel about everything that has happened so far. even if i didnt do the surprise, i would still tell him abt my feelings. either way, both will make things awkward right? im determined to tell him how i feel cos i think its essential. so if both are gna have the same effects, shld i just carry them out?
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