LoveDeluxe78 Posted October 4, 2007 Posted October 4, 2007 I was doing so well; totally moving on!!!! It's been exactly a month, but then my stupid drunk ass last night decides to call him, and he was so cold and nonchalant, and so over me! It made me so upset because obviously I'm so not over him (even though I broke up with him, but I had no choice because I was more in pain when I was with him), yet he seems so well adjusted and so OVER me! I put so much into that relationship, and he never took it seriously nor opened up to me. I just feel like if he had, we would've had such a great relationship. Everything was like pulling teeth, but I miss him! I'm not sure if it's because I am hurt and upset by the way it ended and him moving on so fast, or is it because the relationship was so unfulfilling most of the time, but wonderful at times, or is it because I truly miss him! I'm not even sure. All I know is that I've just relapsed and it's not good!
loveinlife Posted October 4, 2007 Posted October 4, 2007 im sorry love, i know how it feels. Its the other way around for me as i am the dumpee. Been so long and i really try to move on. But im not and its sucks everyday to be reminded that im not good enough for my ex. Like im not good enough for just who i am to someone i want to be with forever. ahh *teary eyes*
Author LoveDeluxe78 Posted October 4, 2007 Author Posted October 4, 2007 im sorry love, i know how it feels. Its the other way around for me as i am the dumpee. Been so long and i really try to move on. But im not and its sucks everyday to be reminded that im not good enough for my ex. Like im not good enough for just who i am to someone i want to be with forever. ahh *teary eyes* I may have been the dumper, but he was actually the "passive dumper" if you know what I mean! He gave me NO options, but to break up with him! So in essence, to me, I see it as him dumping me in some ways. Well, I see it as him not wanting to be with me, but being too selfish to break up with me, just acting like I wasn't good enough for him, and waiting for me to break up with him so that he didn't have to do the dirty work! It's truly hurtful!
loveinlife Posted October 4, 2007 Posted October 4, 2007 I may have been the dumper, but he was actually the "passive dumper" if you know what I mean! He gave me NO options, but to break up with him! So in essence, to me, I see it as him dumping me in some ways. Well, I see it as him not wanting to be with me, but being too selfish to break up with me, just acting like I wasn't good enough for him, and waiting for me to break up with him so that he didn't have to do the dirty work! It's truly hurtful! I bet! thats why im still online and its mid night in cali, hard to sleep and getting my toes situated by myself.
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