overanalytical Posted October 1, 2007 Posted October 1, 2007 well, i find myself here again. i'm not questioning getting married but having problems...within myself. my fiance still is out of a job and i can see it is riding on him all around. he has no routine, he has no drive because he's having trouble finding a position. he's okay financially due to his severance pkg from his company but i can see he needs something to do, to drive him, to accomplish something. and it's starting to weigh on my nerve, especially after this weekend and being together all weekend. i'm starting to develop jealousy/insecurities. he's out looking for jobs during the week and all i can f'in think about is what kind of girls are at these places and if he'll cahnge jobs and find someone else. how horrible am i?? i'm so insecure in myself and cant' seem to kick this feeling. i love him with all my heart and don't want anything to happen between us. lately we've had our ups and downs just due to the job loss and frustrations but i figured that would happen, along with welcoming a new rommate into the house (and teh house is only 1500 sq ft so not much room to get ANY alone time) it's all culminating together and causing insecurites on my part for some odd reason. i cant' figure this out. how do i push this out of my thoughts? we are getting married in january! what am i doing? if i dont' watch it all this is going to make me push him away. and all for nothing. i have no reason to think anything...he loves me with all hsi heart and i'm messing that up...
justpassingthrough Posted October 1, 2007 Posted October 1, 2007 So, let me get this straight.... Future Husband (FH) gets laid off with only two weeks worth of money saved. Meanwhile, FH moves a buddy into the home you two share. FH spends his free time with said buddy and prefers you not trouble him with such trivial things as answering a yes-or-no question or, for that matter, a little lovin'. When FH isn't spending his free time with said buddy, he mopes around and tries to find a job. And YOU are "messing that up"? How? It's already a mess, and it's a mess you didn't make.
Recommended Posts