HeadlessZebra Posted September 29, 2007 Posted September 29, 2007 It's been a while since I posted here. In two days I'm going under the knife. I'm getting breast implants and a Brazilian butt lift (I'm slender and shapeless). This will turn me from about an 8.5 to a 10, say all my guy friends. :-P I've waited for this my whole life! I was in a relationship for four months until about a month ago. This guy (we'll call him Humphrey *lol*) was amazing in and of himself except we didn't seem to have any chemistry after the first few days. I couldn't tell why... we had everything in common, even to our goals and dreams... But because he's a bigshot nightclub manager who knows absolutely everyone in this city, and because he's so physically attractive that even walking down the street, hot women would pass by, overtly undress him with their eyes and then throw me a dirty glare, and because he never wanted to have sex with me even though he claimed to have always been very sexual previously, I always suspected he just wasn't attracted to me enough physically and thought he could do better. He broke up with me a couple of times, didn't give me any attention or consideration, nitpicked at my every flaw, wouldn't open up to me or be vulnerable with me at all... I just figured he was whiling the time away until someone better came along. But damn me, I'm a sucker. I loved this man and suffered greatly the whole time we were together, because of this one-sided relationship. Then he finds out I'm finally getting my operation (this is after the breakup) and suddenly he's (gasp) making sexual innuendos at me??? Unheard of, for him! Saying things like when I get my butt done, he doesn't think he'll be able to resist bending me over and... well, you get the picture. Convenient, huh. NOW he's interested in me. He always claimed I was so beautiful and that he IS attracted to me, but I'm sure you see what BS that must be. ANYWAY... One of my best friends, whom I've been friends with for five years (we'll call him Egbert), who's like twin souls with me, who knows me like the back of his hand and vice versa, though we've never been involved in any way, calls me. We arrange to have me recover post-operation in his house where he can take care of me. I swing by his house last week to hang out. We're talking, we're talking, hours, hours, hours... I kiss him. We KISS. (capital letters). Everything suddenly happens. Next thing you know, we're falling in love or what have you. Like a "we should have done something about us a long time ago" type deal. Amazing sex, all day, all night, no sleep, talking for hours, laughing, crying, laughing some more... And I have to ask. Is this right? Might I be using my friend because I'm on the rebound? I feel so strongly about him... and he's going crazy over me... but he's never been my physical type (he's chunky and I usually go for stick figures), and I guess that's why we'd never taken it anywhere... but now I'm so attracted to him, and so aroused by him, and can't get enough of him, etc. etc. What do you think? Am I insane?
Ariadne Posted September 29, 2007 Posted September 29, 2007 Hey, What do you think? Am I insane? No, I think you found true love. Congrats. I'd pospone the surgery, for now anyway, and enjoy the moment. The other guy is on some ego ride that you are going to have the surgery to get him to do you. Ariadne
Author HeadlessZebra Posted September 29, 2007 Author Posted September 29, 2007 Thanks for the encouragement. It's just that the last thing I want is to use, hurt, or in any way wrong my friend. He's rebounding too and he'd been hurting just like me. but now we're so deliriously happy... I just don't want it to be an illusion that ends up hurting us worse, or ruining a long and close friendship.
Ariadne Posted September 30, 2007 Posted September 30, 2007 Hey, we're so deliriously happy... I just don't want it to be an illusion that ends up hurting us worse, or ruining a long and close friendship. Nah, don't worry about it. Sometimes it takes time to realize these things, Ariadne
norajane Posted September 30, 2007 Posted September 30, 2007 But because he's a bigshot nightclub manager who knows absolutely everyone in this city, and because he's so physically attractive that even walking down the street, hot women would pass by, overtly undress him with their eyes and then throw me a dirty glare, and because he never wanted to have sex with me even though he claimed to have always been very sexual previously, I always suspected he just wasn't attracted to me enough physically and thought he could do better. He broke up with me a couple of times, didn't give me any attention or consideration, nitpicked at my every flaw, wouldn't open up to me or be vulnerable with me at all... I just figured he was whiling the time away until someone better came along. But damn me, I'm a sucker. I loved this man and suffered greatly the whole time we were together, because of this one-sided relationship.Until someone better came along? As a nightclub owner who had women undressing him with their eyes on the street, sounds like there were lots of 'someone' betters all over the place...yet he chose not to be with them...strange, Yes? Then he finds out I'm finally getting my operation (this is after the breakup) and suddenly he's (gasp) making sexual innuendos at me??? Unheard of, for him! Saying things like when I get my butt done, he doesn't think he'll be able to resist bending me over and... well, you get the picture.Ah, it makes more sense now. The picture I get is he's closeted gay...so much interest in the new ass, no interest in all those women who are undressing him with their eyes... I'm with Ariadne. Enjoy the relationship with your friend, and forget the surgery. Your friend thinks you're hot the way you are, and probably so do a lot of other people. You don't need gay nightclub owners to f*ck you.
kymberann Posted September 30, 2007 Posted September 30, 2007 I was thinking in the closet too! So what if you are on the rebound. any relationship that comes along could be considered rebound. Besides you two have the friendship part down, that's what matters most first! Enjoy it and see where it leads. Good luck with the surgery!
Author HeadlessZebra Posted September 30, 2007 Author Posted September 30, 2007 I was thinking in the closet too! No, definitely not. :laugh: I know a few of his exes. He had plenty of sex with them and they are all female. Good luck with the surgery! Thanks! Postponing or cancelling is not an option... it's paid for, I really want it, and I've waited a long time for it.
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