I want to say 'I Love You' :)

[finallyhappyme]

I have always snooped through this website and never found a reason to really post until today. Straight to the point I want to tell my highschool sweetheart that I love him. Here's the scoop: We met in highschool when I was 15 and he was 16. We tried dating but I came from a strict home and he needed to party so we never really worked out. He came in and out of my life for a couple of years until I gave up and told myself I needed to let him go and if he's meant for me he will come find me when he's ready. I left and moved on as did he. I moved on to a great guy and dated him for 4 years. And then my sweetheart showed up out of the blue. He said after I left for good he couldn't stop thinking about me. He would wake up in cold sweats after dreaming about me. From then he knew he loved me and wanted to be with me. This put me in a tough spot because I had already moved on and the guy I was with really loved me. So we went back and fourth, meeting up at night, late night calls, and I was back to when we were 15 again.

I would go to dinner with him and then not call him for weeks at a time because I just couldn't believe everything I had always wanted to hear he was actually telling me. And I really didnt want to hurt my boyfriend at the time. So we stayed friends at my request for about two years, and we were there for each other through really rough times. Even though I had a bf he still was there for me and never left my side.

Finally he got tired of waiting and one day when I fought with my bf and called him to vent he told me he couldn't do it anymore. He said he had to move on and I had to let him go. At first I said I understood and went my own way. But I couldn't deal. Soon I became sick, the fights with my bf intensified, I couldn't eat and I was suffering big time depression. I was messing up at work and was even being really mean to the people I loved. I was not myself at all. I really did not know what was wrong with me until I realized it was him. I loved him and I needed him. I couldn't live without him.

I left my boyfriend because I really didn't love him and stayed alone for a few months. I finally called my HS sweetheart and told him my bf and I had broken up and My HS sweetheart and I are now talking as friends again. He told me he still feels exactly the same about me and in the time he tried to forget me and move on, he couldn't. So we are sort of dating right now but Since I have realized that I love him I have been wanting to scream it from the roof tops! I have never told him I loved him and I really want to make it something special and memorable.

I want to suprise him and come up with something creative but I'm not very good at those things and he is. So that's where I need the help. I don't want to make it too corny lol but memorable.

Any Ideas? :love: