mourningMM Posted September 26, 2007 Posted September 26, 2007 I've finally stopped seeing my on-again off-again lover....we had an open relationship; no strings just fun. It really was an affair, not even dates. Just incredible joyful exploratory s*x! But no emotional growth; really it was just-plain-fun about once every two weeks. So now it has been six weeks; and I am so incredibly horney I could scream...at myself for having cut off my nose to spite my face. I had a bird in the hand, but let it go because I want more. I hate this, it is like breaking an addiction. I miss the tension of waiting to see him, the excitement of planning our time together, the release of enjoying each other. Now I know I deserve more, and that as long as we played I was being lazy and not growing in the relationship. No doupt this was the right decision. But I want to change my mind NOW!!! Give me a hand here...and no jokes about a vibrator; you know it can't replace the real thing!
amaysngrace Posted September 26, 2007 Posted September 26, 2007 Actually I think the vibrator is sometimes better than the real thing, but that's just me. But if you don't have him on your mind it kind of makes it tough to even want to use it. Masturbation is cool as an option but not as a way of life. So you were okay with the way things were afterall or not? If you were content with it being like it was then why don't you give him a call?
Author mourningMM Posted September 26, 2007 Author Posted September 26, 2007 And as incredible as the physical pleasure was; it was like eating Chinese food. I know I'd just be hungry again the next day. I'm just not being patient; finding a new "crush" might work...but I really think I want a full relationship now. I wish I could just order one from a catalog. SWM emotionally mature, available for growing relationship, sexual exploration, and hot dates. Dancing, massage, and yoga skills greatly appreciated! Minimum height 6'1", smile and twinkling eyes mandatory. LOL..
Author mourningMM Posted September 26, 2007 Author Posted September 26, 2007 flexibility, imagination and stamina options get bonus points!
amaysngrace Posted September 26, 2007 Posted September 26, 2007 You know what everyone else says...find hobbies, get out, look good and go places. Get your hair done. Go shopping. And if none of that works, go have drinks with the girls.
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