serendipity2501 Posted September 25, 2007 Posted September 25, 2007 i had been with my gf for 2 and a half years. our relationship was a complicated one and it was hidden from everyone apart from our two closest friends. having siad that we were passionately in love and we had a really strong emotional connection. we told each other everything.one week ago we ended it mutually because we were both off to uni. she went last week, i still have one week to go. before she left we promised each other we would talk every day and become best friends, as this seemed the next best thing to a relationship. the first couple of days were fine, it felt like we hadent broken up. then she stopped txtin and calling regularly. she was making new friends, having so much fun while i was/am stuck at home alone feeling depressed. when i did manage to get through to her i couldnt stop crying and we told each other how much we missed and loved one another. then she became less sympathetic and she seemed to stop understanding that i was in a worse position than her, telling me she was "sick" of me being upset. if i sounded sad on the phone she would have a go at me for it. she hung up the phone on me crying several times. this only made me more angry and upset and made me call her more but she wasnt having any of it. this happened again today and i messaged saying she was a rude selfish bit** and i never wanted to hear from her again because i was so hurt she didnt care i was upset. she messaged back saying "fine." she is my first love and i have never felt so low in my life. she has ppl to suport her while i just feel alone. i feel like im taking it a lot harder than her. i also have a constant fear that on a drunken night out she will pull someone else..or worse. how do i get rid of this fear? i see pics of her on facebook smiling and looking like shes having the time of her life with her new best friends. this only kicks me when im down. yet i still check my phone evry ten minutes to see if shes made contact. how can i stop doing this? because the relationship was not known about i have no one to grieve to. i need help in getting over her.please.
Curious139 Posted September 26, 2007 Posted September 26, 2007 Ok I can feel your pain and distress. You really need someone to talk to face to face. This forum is great but I suggest you see a counsellor if possible. Hiding your loss inside you isn't healthy - perhaps you should confide in one or two friends and a family member. I'm afraid she has gone from your life now. She is young, in a new and exciting place, meeting people, and very much distracted from your relationship. You need to get out among people yourself. Also avoid contacting her, don't look for her on the net, all you will do is hurt yourself. Take care of yourself.
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