Prim&proper Posted September 24, 2007 Posted September 24, 2007 It's been almost 2 months of NC, 5 months since we broke up. I go from missing him and wanting him back so badly to thinking that he's really bad for me and that it would never really work out. It's so weird the fluctuations, only in a matter of hours. Does this mean that I'm getting closer to being over him?
marty Posted September 24, 2007 Posted September 24, 2007 been almost 2 months for me too. the last week or so i've been pretty good tbh. very positive,looking forward and realising she was not the person i thought she was. its the old story of wishing i knew then what i know now. but this weekend , and today,, i'm really really missing her. been crying again. its like ive regressed somehow. i'm holding on the thought that its just the process i have to go through. how can you go from knowing this girl wasnt right for you and used you one minute,,, and the next,,, wanting her back so so badly. still get the urge to contact her, knowing it'll do me no good what so ever. why want something thats bad for you. its like a drug i guess. yesterday was a real rollercoaster. just as i thought i was moving on, i ended up talking to my best pal about her all morning, getting upset again. in the afternoon found reasoning again and got on with things. for me though,,, loneliness is a big issue. never had to deal with that before, so its probably making me second guess my feelings. sorry for the rant,,
Jmina Posted September 24, 2007 Posted September 24, 2007 i am exactly the same one minute i feel all my love for her, and i miss her more than anything. an hour later ill be thinking shes not who i thought she was. some times i feel im regressing back, other times i feel that im doing really well and not thinking about her.. jmina
Bosiell Posted September 24, 2007 Posted September 24, 2007 Hell yeah, the mixed emotions and feelings, trying to rationalise things in your head. One minute you tell yourself that it would have never worked out and its for the best, its her loss and all that. Then the next minute one great memory comes flying into your heart, and you start that horrible longing for things to be as they were, you would do anything, absolutely anything for another chance. Only been two weeks for me, not long at all. It has been the longest most emotional two weeks of my life no doubt at all. But I know I have made progress, I think of how I felt this time last week compared to now and know I am healing, slowly but surely. I still think if her 24/7, still want that phone to ring, but I can start finally to see some light in my darkest tunnel. LS has helped no end. For me I am now trying balance the low with higher (not high!) and make a mental note each day how long each last. They will come a time in the near future, when a sense of normality will become dominant, and the lows will fade away. Time will tell, that will largley be down to me, how strong I am. I know I must be. Must we all Hugs Bosiell
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