AngeloWolfe Posted September 14, 2007 Posted September 14, 2007 Confrontation happened last friday, and it's been hard for me to think about it since then. But... I wanted to share the experience with all of you. Nowhere else I feel comfortable venting. lol. So, the past is dead, I've moved on with my life and found love once again... more beautiful than before as always. However, some things have really been bothering me during all this. In June, after I caught my ex cheating on me, I was so broke up about it I was in shambles! However, two days after I broke up with her she started dating this much older male. A week after dating, while I was still crying over this, she moves in with the guy. >.> Anyways... it's September now, and lots of things have happened since then. She's still not admitted to anyone what she did, and is making everyone believe that I made the stuff up and such. She's had several people come up to me during the day, commenting, "How could you hurt someone like that? Making them feel that way?" It's sickening... while, at the same time, she comes up to me in August asking if we were still friends. I wanted to spit in her face, but calmly smiled and said we were. Two weeks later, after these people start coming up to me with these comments I confront her about it, and make it clear that I want nothing to do with her anymore. Basically, we weren't 'friends' anymore. She calls me that night, asking 'what the f*** is my problem? That I need to get over us because I've got a girlfriend now.' So, I go Marlon Brando on her. I've NEVER spoken two hateful words to another person, and made her feel like hell froze over. I was so disgusted with her existence in this world, i Just... let 3 months of pain unfold on her. SO! after being with this new guy for less than two months, has engaged to him, and is already planning children. A little.. early for an 18 year old, huh? Who knows... my question is... am I becoming a hateful person for raging against her like that? For basically sticking up for myself for this?
Heartache11 Posted September 14, 2007 Posted September 14, 2007 I'm sure you had a lot of hate and anger inside of you because of what happened at the end of your relationship. And this triggered you to go off on her. I don't think anyone could blame you. Either way, it is best to not talk to her anymore and remove her from your life, especially when you have another girlfriend and she is engaged. How does all this make your girlfriend feel? It seems you still have some emotional ties to your ex. You let it out, now let go.
Author AngeloWolfe Posted September 14, 2007 Author Posted September 14, 2007 Well... she's rather comfortable about it, since we've both just gotten out of rather difficult relationships, and foud a way to move on. She doesn't like how my ex keeps pulling stunts to try to hurt our relationship, and trying to be 'top dog', so to speak. All in all, my ex can pop two puppies out and live off of a heroin addiction. It's the past. The only thing that always got to me is, "I've never hurt anyone.. I've always been 'too' nice, always been the one with no backbone and to be used. Why would anyone do this to me?" I had to slap myself to understand that this world is just full of bad people. Full of those that will do bad things... and it was my fault for leaving myself open in this fashion. It just scared me, looking back on it, that I saw how 'determined' I'm becoming. I don't trust easily anymore, I hold my friends close to me, and I never back off of my word. I like to think I'm trustworthy... and through that I"m finding much more emotional strength. I just don't want to get too carried away with it.... ya know?
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