TooMuchTheGentleman Posted September 9, 2007 Posted September 9, 2007 After a breakup that was hard on me, seemingly not as hard for her, I reached my limit a couple of months after her leaving me, my ex fiance was off my couch a lil more than a month ago. I piled up her stuff at the door and she took all but a couple of pieces of furniture, seen her only once since then, just to drop off some papers of her i found. I have been tryin to schedule borrowing a truck, borrowing a friend, and dropping off her couch and dresser,getting em out of what is now my apartment alone. I think tomorrow I will actually be able to get up in time, and if its not raining I will get it finally taken care of. But, I will have to drop off one at her mothers and one at her fathers where she now lives. Perhaps to speak with them for a minute. Not to apologize for my actions, I did all that was humanly possible. Maybe though to express regret that their daughter's life went sour after leaving me. To ensure they didnt hear any lies, knowing i did all i could and never did her wrong. Her father, because of the field ive entered most recently, I may run into him while Im setting up a server for the IT department of some random company. He I hope knew me well enough after my time with his daughter to not cause any unpleasantness should I run into him again after dropping off the remainder of her belongings. . I still miss her on occasion in a bittersweet way. Im still mad or hurt at times, but in general im almost apathetic. I must figure out how to finish sorting these feelings out, as before i leave the University, im likely to end up in a class with her again, or at least close enough that i have to pass by her on campus at times. . I dont cry missing her or about her anymore, though ill admit i do feel a great amount of sadness, maybe pity sympathy or a lil regret, knowing through mutual friends and such how her life has gone. Myself, ive started dating somewhat, finding a couple of at least good friends, one woman Im actually interested, though i feel nothign will likely come of it, only seeing her twice in a month now. . So tomorrow, I may speak with her parents and see her for the first time for more than 30 seconds in a month or so.... I have a feeling it will be difficult, not sure how it will turn out for me honestly. We shall see, and will hope for the best. any advice?
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